is it because it is just it is or is it not?

he told me 3 thngs dat i'l remember til death.

1. not to repeat wut i thot wus wrong. 2. to influenced millios of others on gud rather than being influenced by one silly thing. 3. i control my life. either to live well or end it. i hv d power. not other ppl. not anyone else.

and wif that. i juz felt i cn go thru anythng. hw weird it is to agree on dis one particular person dat i so hate and yet fallen deeper more and more everyday. whch of course i'l try to deny. i closed the door. its no way he'l open nway but i still wont unlock it. in case he cares to search for the key. Allah, let him hv d key! plizz...