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a tag by yorke...

Instructions:
* Bold the statements that are true to you.*
Italicize the statements that you wish were true.*
Leave the fibs alone.* Then, stab 5 people to do the same test.


I’m 170cm tall.
I don’t know what I want at the moment.
I’m not happy.
I hate my friends.
I hate my life.
I hate my grades.
He drives.
I’m bored of driving.
I have a white handbag.
I love dancing.
I go clubbing every week.
Shopping is bullshit.
I have a tattoo of a star.
I got my navel pierced.
I have friends that take drugs.
90% of my friends smoke.
I still hang out with my ex, even though our break up was rather nasty.
I’m studying Fashion.
I have a business running.
I hate cartoons.
I hate someone.
I have 10 Guess handbags.
I buy CLEO every month.
My parents don’t know about my blog.
I have an iPod.
I don’t have faith in the current “one”.
My school mates know about my blog.
I wanted to be a fashion designer.
I love rock emo bands.
I hate it when people cancel last minute meet ups.
I’m a rebel.
I’m starting to like wearing dresses.
I don’t believe in love.
High school's filled with drama.
My parents have faith in me.
I’ve bought shoes this month.
A blogger bitched about me before.
I hate sports.
I heart Italian food.
I hate meeting new people.
I hate nail polish.
The mother bear gives me hugs.
People should start appreciating me.
High school was the worst time of my life.
I have red hair.
Mid Valley is my second home.
I’m a guy.
I’m scared of my Biology exam.
I hate vacations.
We’ll last.
I believe in long distance relationships.
I’m going to get high and smoke weed one day soon.
I’ve robbed an old lady.
I’m starting to like applying make-up.
I was a tomboy.
At times I think I still am a tomboy.
I love bitching about people behind their backs.
I still have a best friend.
I have a cat.
I hate surprise parties.
I hate planning parties.
I’m hot.
I’m a sinner.
I’ve got a DS light.
I have a Wii.
I can live without music.
Video games are a waste of time.
I miss the father bear.
I love being in love.
I know how to cook.
I have 100% freedom.
Boys are assholes.
I hate Math.
I love horror films.
I’m happy with what I have.
I slept in my parents’ room for 3 days after watching Scream when I was a kid.
My old friends keep in touch with me.
I don’t read newspapers.
The news is such a waste of time.
Blogging is a waste of time.
I hate animals.
I can’t live without make-up.
I curse like a pirate.
I’m happy with my 11 year old car.
I hate people that are smart.
I love Apple Juice.
I can’t drink for nuts.
I believe that everyone in their teens have lost their virginity.
I’ve got a new phone.
I’m going to get a new pair of shoes by the end of this month.
I love swimming.
I haven’t worked out since March.
I think I’m fat.
I love my friends and family.

1st assignment done..kerja sekolah kedua..

tag 5 orang..
1. baqs
2. aliah musa
3. elly elly
4. nen
5. abel

best kot

best kot tgk org yg bleh set goal.. and determine smpi dpt achieve it.
bukan ape, sbb aku xpenah..

hampeh seyes.

kalo ade goal pun, bukan goal namanye kalo tak work for it.

lama2 goal pon bohsan dgn aku.

sume aku nak tapi tak buat sampai aku dpt.. setakat nak jer pastuh tak buat pape buat ape.
nie lagi teruk dari mat jenin. at least mat jenin ade r gak 'nampak' ape yg dia nak. aku takut kot nak nak apa yg aku nak. ergh. dush dush.

tlg lah for once, buat sth tak payah org suro! :(

istiqomah tiada dlm diri... dilemma sungguh dgn setan.

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if u fail to plan, u plan to fail.
sekian... kesimpulan hidup sy...

ramadhan berlalu...

bila something tuh hilang depan mata baru kita rasa kehilangan kan.
mcm tuh juga ramdhan dan raya.
tapi kali nie rasa sgt.
macam air di sungai mengalir melepasi celah2 jari kita.
hati aku berkecamuk. dengan byknya hari2 yg berlalu yg tak terisi.
dlm masa yg sama, satu persatu wajah2 itu muncul. tiada kaitan tapi seolah2 cukup dekat di hati. entah apa lah yg mereka hadapi dan lalui utk smpi ke tahap sekarang.
benar, usaha itu lif kejayaan. mereka semua pasti tak pernah berputus asa. tak pernah.

meski pun puasa sudah tak perlu lagi. terawikh sudah tiada. malam seribu bulan hanya tinggal kenangan.. nasib lah puasa enam dpt mengubat kerinduan ramadhan dan kesemua isi di dlm nya.

kdg2 aku mahu menyalahkan dunia.
yg membuat aku leka dgn keasyikkannya.
namun dunia pun hamba. yg merayu agar dirinya tidak sakit dgn ragam manusia yg pelbagai. termasuk aku. aku jua hamba yg sering kali berlagak tuan. yg menyalahkan dunia atas kelemahan dirinya menepis musuh akrab yg sudah bebas tak terbelenggu lagi.

setiap hamba layak diuji. dan aku mahu diuji agar aku tahu tuhan itu dekat dgnku..

mimpi semalam menyedarkan aku akan suatu perkara yg membingungkan.
adakah benar, tuhan?
aku masih tidak mahu percaya.
bak kata adik, mungkin roh kita berjumpa dgn rohnya.
entah.
masih lagi pelik.
tapi hati masih bisu.
seribu bahasa...

ah, raya. ape lah ertinya jika mata ku masih lagi melihat segenap sisi sisi gelap manusia. dan otak ku yg sepatutnya menggali ilmu dipindahkan kerisauan terhadap mereka. terima kasih kerna menunjukkan contoh yg 'baik'.. ingat lah. redha tuhan ada dlm redha ibu ayah...

come on lah~

come on lah, bende kecik pon nk nanges.. haih. x tough langsong. ya r, compare to everthng else, tlg lah jgn compare aku dgn adik.. apehal. fine, u hv all the right to marah me. fine. but pliz. dis is not fair. its like comparing apple n orange. he listens well. not like me. degil. yes. thank you. and now im sheding my tear and i dun feel like sad nemo coz i wanna prove to u dat im incharge. as much as una is!

remember

remember the day u decided to stand. and jatuh balik.. then ur mum or ur abg or ur abah hold ur hand. and u dun cry. but u think its fun sbb by standing and 20 seconds later falling flat atas pampers, mak laugh and she thinks dats so cute of u and u sumhow obviously agrees with her..

remember the day u saw mak semayang and u think nanti bila mak bwat stunt elephant nak naik atas belakang dia mcm gelongsor slide.. and sikit pun mak tak marah tapi dia pesan, nanti pecah kepala nanti.. hehe.

remember the day when u were in tadika, wearing those tiny uniforms and bawa bekal and stuff. i used to miss mak and cried in the toilet. at one point my class teacher will drag me out of the toilet.. teruk giler but then im my momma's little gurl.. (:

remember when the day school finishes and mak was not around yet, i used to play ting-ting with old pal frens whch i forgot their names but faces no way.. i heart u guys where ever u are..

remember when u first puasa.. abah was worried that i tak tahan and he woke me up from sleep and i think i was standard one that time and asked me to drink and eat.. and still now being 15 years later, abah masih risau dgn sebegitu byk perkara yg out of his control whch i will alwez terdengar in his doa, ya allah selamatkan lah anak anak ku shahirah dan shahiran dari perkara-perkara malapetaka yg hanya Kau mampu lindungi..

and remember Dr Jamil nak case write up esok??

yeah! O & G! NAK abes dah posting ini :(

lenyap

lenyap sudah

dari hari ke hari

lalu termangu kesunyian

perlukah sesuatu ditunggu berlaku

semoga tunggu pun bosan

dan berlalu

sesuatu harus berlaku

dan mata tidak boleh hanya memerhati

kerna entah bila masa yg berlalu itu dpt dtg kembali

kalah sebelum bertanding

hina sungguh hari ini

baik jadi kucing gemuk

tapi kau manusia bukan

ada hati ada otak

guna lah

jangan letak di lutut

mengeluh pun tak guna

orang dah meluru

bertatih pula yang seorang ini

mcm tak peduli

mcm lah tak ada impian

ke dah lenyap semuanya?

melangkah terus

Kalau aku yang terakhir, maka aku lah yang terakhir..Aku terima, aku terima dan aku terima.

-i quoted this from za in his blog. He has nvr failed to make my heart move.. dan kali nie aku rasa perasaan dia. mcm soldier kalah perang. wats d point u survive and other ppl in d team died..

-tak pe.. life must go on! dan tiadalah yg terbaik itu dtg, tapi dr Allah juga..

kalau kau yg terakhir, aku nak kau tahu yg kau kena berakhir dgn bergaya, ok.. suit up lah, bro! cayo!

jarang-jarang

jarang2 dpt merasa dihargai atau di notice kewujudan.

ala, bende bende kecik..

macam, "shashu nie kalo tak bawak extra luggage tak sah.." (ko perasan? sweet nye.)

dan byk lah lg bende2 kecik yg munkin pd kau tak bermakna apa pun, tapi bg aku, lain..

tahadu, tadabu.. hadis ini mengingatkan kita utk memberi hadiah, utk mewujudkan kasih syg antara satu sama lain.. dan sepatutnya, no matter how rich u are, believe me, if the present comes frm a sincere heart, truly no matter what cost the prize is, surely org yg menerima itu akan appreciate, hatta hadiah RM2 skali pon.. the thoughts that counts..

tapi aku jarang sekali ingat utk memberi hadiah ini.. apalagi meng wish birthday org.. kalau takde hp reminder, mmg tobat tak ingat.. sampai si adaw kecik hati lah juge.. aku lupa sungguh birthday dia 4hb sept yg lalu.. sori gell daw.. iksh2. hp baru dowh.. xde reminder dah.. haih~

ape-ape pun, hadiah yg paling best is jannah.. and no way will Allah give you paradise for free..

apa lah aku nak jawab kat tuhan nanti.. byk sungguh lompong-lompong hati yg perlu dijahit ketat dan kemas..

dan acap kali manusia jarang sungguh menghargai nikmat tuhan yg tak terperi..

masa utk kembali, semua..ke jalan yg kita pilih atas mahukan redha Tuhan..

sementara masih ada waktu.. yosh!

so, how?

mcm mn nk lupa org yg kita syg tapi x syg kat kita? org yg kita suka tapi tak suka kat kita..so, how?

(ditanya oleh seorang kawan di suatu hari yg hening..)

dan aku termangu. soalan yg serupa hendak ku aju juga. tapi tak tahu pd sape..

entah dr mn kekuatan. aku katakan pantas dan tenang..

buat apa nk lupa? tak payah lupa..

hah? tapi...buat apa nak ingat kat org yg tak ingt kat kita?

betul.

so, how?

kdg2 mencintai tuh tak semestinya memiliki.. kalau kita betul syg org tuh, ikhlas.. kita tak perlu pun menuntut dia syg kita blk.. syg kan tak boleh paksa.. mmg lah sedih sbb kita kan manusia biasa.. nak syg dan disayangi kembali tapi tuhan tuh adil, yang.. dia lebih tahu. kdg2 kita rasa suatu perkara itu baik utk kita tapi tak semestinya utk Tuhan, itu adalah terbaik utk kita..

seperti lembaran novel atau buku dongeng cerita purba.. kita tak sabar nak tahu apa happy endingnya.. itu buku, ini hidup.. hidup ini penuh dengan perjuangan.. dari mak ayah kita struggle nak kahwin, sperma sturggle nak reach ovum, mak abah struggle nak besarkan kita.. dan sampailah kita sekarang..dpt hidup dgn lebih baik dan sempurna.. dari kita sedih dengan satu org yg tak suka kat kita, baik kita gembira dgn byknya org lain yg syg kat kita.. kan?

susah wey..

(: aku tahu. tapi cuba lah senyum sket. bukan mati pun dia tak suka kau..

(: ok laa..