ACTIVATED

maybe i am a human with some sense of hopefulness in me.
even if i am all negative and swing and sad and etc, Alhamdulilah i stay hopeful. its like holding to insyaAllah, Allah will gantikan back watever i have lost or failed or etc.

maybe most of the time i am like that. sometime i dont. please remind me that i am a very hopeful person. maybe optimistic as well. maybe. InsyaAllah positive.

there are actually a lot of things that we can be grateful of. So many that we definitely lost count. DEFINITELY! one of my biggest gratefulness is an opportunity given by Allah to be a debater in UIA when i was a matriculation student back in 2005-2007 and i am still more than welcome to join their activities, even actually yesterday and today i wus involved with LIGA DEBAT KDBM that was attend by UIA GOMBAK, NILAI, PJ n KUANTAN student junior debaters. :) so proud of this enthuthiastic debaters who chose to be in AIKOL , debate, debate, all 4 rounds instead of being sumwhere else like MIDVALLEY, KLCC and byk lagi, just to name a few. :)

i am very honour when my frens appointed me to become a judge. i wus expecting to just enjoy the show sajorh. i thot izzat jones(the president) was joking around when he said, pliz judge nanti. of course lah i am indeed qualified and pernah je jadi judge... pernah jadi debater, wakil uia but it had been so long since i last debate or even be a judge... i started judging in 2nd round however.. the usul that i judged was 1) UMNO and PAS perlu bergabung, 2) azwan ali sudah tidak laser 3) biotech menjana eko. negara 4) isu alam sekitar: media massa syok sendiri and final round i went home sebab mak xde teman buka pose, abah need to go berbakti i.e business matters. hehe.

but u know, debate is all fun,fun,fun. i really miss the adrenaline.
i miss the noisy laughter when a debater manage to crack jokes and rebutt a point so bergayaly.
i miss the family sense of KDBM have.
i miss the concern seniors of how poorly u did in exam due to debate hectic training.
i miss the time i had stupid crushes on senior debaters who obviously accepted me not more than a small sister.
i miss the makan-makan time.
i miss enjoyning the show.
i miss training and all the harsh words that u can telan bulat2 for the sake of winning a comp.
i miss everyting about debate.

kak mas hug me when she need to balik awal today with all her heroes berderet2 sbb no maid, so all have to follow mommy mcm anak ayam jerh. hehe. and she said, shashu, u are indeed a loyal friend, a loyal ahli club KDBM. u shud have stayed in UIA. we need ppl like u.
so sweet of u, kak mas. muah2.
my answer? well, i am also suprise actually when i answered her that IF i am not in CUCMS, i don't think i will come back here, i dont think i will be here again if i am not in CUCMS.

why?
because only in CUCMS that i realize, that the skills of thinking creatively and OTB is SO SO IMPORTANT. our teacher/lecturer can taught us HOW TO DO SUMTHING, BUT to think why u need to do it and how to do it right or better, that involves level of thinking, it involves ability to think and rethink and think and rethink and it goes on and on... Which i gladly have had those trainings during my time as a debater in UIA.

thank you Allah for experiences that i could not BUY anywhere else in this whole world.
i am happy.
especially sharing tazkirah before every match start during the debate league:) awesome!
thank you Allah. Alhmadulilah.

rasa terharu juga bila Bro Cipul (senior coach) said, this is kak shashu and she is a legendary senior living example of a true from zero to hero ikon.

tinggi sgt award tuh. hehe. insyaAllah heroin of the ummah.. AMIN...

P/S:
esok dah start clinical posting.
hoo-ray.
geekrajingilaistiqomah mode:
ACTIVATED!