the truth

i hate u.. do not hate me because i hate u. do not hate me becoz i lied. but its the truth. i hate u.. i hate u so much that i wish i didn't know u.. maybe ur juz a dream. a nitemare.. mayb ur just like the wind. a storm. u'll pass by. i'll survive... or perhaps i'll be wrecked up and dissapear.. i hate u. i wish i hate u from the beginning till the end. but strangely, i don't.. as much as there are so lots of reasons to love u.. im building walls around myself as a reminder.. that i should just hate u from the start.. i knoe, its wrong.. but wut's right? i wanna live for u.. i wanna see u smile.. and us talking the signs that only we knew.. or perhaps we knew.. i wonder u'll remember those days.. and i won't blame u if u don't recall anything.. coz the truth is, its not worth remembering either..

i know... that's y im going.. to hate myself for hating u. but its the truth. i hv to hate u. i have to..