its time to shine laa (jude's way of speaking..=)

i know of a secret. of somthing so glaring that fortunately no one notices. i had a past. and the secret lies in it. i have a future. but i seem not to run for it. i have only now and i seem to waste it like the wind blowing dust.. vanishes before u realize it.. i feel like giving my best, but there are always tons and tons of reasons or rather excuses that creativity allows as long as humans existed to not be doing what u have to do or need to do.. i hate my life dearly. so much that there are times im confuse.. is life this hateful that i dun like it? or i hate it becoz things are not like wat i wanted.. yes, i hate it bcoz its hard. but its bcoz of its difficulty that im smart. when ur crawling, and u try to walk for the first time when ur small, ur smart enuf to tell, that u'll gonna fall at the moment u try to stand and walk.. but ur smart also to say its ok, mum is der to catch me, its ok, as long as i try, its ok coz i wanna walk like those kids in taman.. so, im smart enuf to tell myself now, that u need and need to change.. change for the better, shahirah. change for the better!