like wild fire

APPLY!
the reading look easier but when u are in a real situation and the magic word utter; apply. well, u may fumble and not be you for a min or two.

that is what i and maybe most of the final year rasa. the toughness of applying.

and its not just the decision. the responsibility. the passion. the love. the sacrifise.

the reality. the pahit.

i found out new things about me, apointed by my real mom and a mother in a labour room.

One is from a mother to her daughter and another from a patient to a medical student.

Thanks maks. love u both.

i learnt that i could be very fragile when i did not trust myself. u could see it clearly when i did not prepare my case (read: did not read through details) or during exam which u'll be bombarded by different level of thinking, exams that needs skills (read: lesen kereta and osce agung) and etc. and the one in labour room is taking blood from patient. ya, take blood jer. tapi tgn aku sejuk. shaking. and mak ckp, kamu ada gemuruh ke shahirah.. yakin diri, bergantung pada Allah. kamu dah belajar kan? (angguk sambil rasa nk nangis terharu) so, yakin jer. be confident. i am confident in you. you know what to do!

anugerah patient terbaik.

on the another note, my clinic session on tuesday was quite miserable. the MO , Dr S was very stern but alhamdulillah she taught my mind to be disciplined and sharp. tq. and yes i'll do it a thousand time if i need to. no prob. iA. tak mati pun is the new motto bebeh!

last night, my marah was tested. nasi and chips. after 20 mins waiting sambil tgk cerita cina, where is the fish? owh, saya ingat akak nk bungkus. (oh my, i terkeluar bodoh for the first time in my life... kecewenya, kamu nak saya makan nasi dgn french fries ke? kenapa bodoh sgt..) May Allah forgive me... hungry can make u angry. but as a muslim, i should have not be that angry. i should be patient and forgive the waiter....

and dear aliah, everyone pernah buat salah. buat salah itu bagus, yang tak bagus bila kita repeat back the mistake....

p/s: steve jobs died 2 days ago i guess. RIP great man.