shu? mana? sana.. pilot. hensem! kl central.. sorang je, bang?

i hate it. to b d last to knoe. as if u fogot me? wut cud be d most azab feeling than dat? although its ur life n i shud not be bothered or even more i shud b hapy cuz u seems hapy but sadness still sink in thru the cracks of the wall of my clumsy confused heart..look, im not asking much, ok.. i dun nag u dat much neither call u dat much nemore cuz i realizd im juz torturing u.. im sori for making u felt tortured. all dis bloody years. since eng in camp melaka sampai aku sgt berbangge juz to imagine ko terbang di awan biru- i think iv been very cruel to throw tantrum and worries u (sumhow..) and annoyed u. and god knows how else u felt wif kawan kau yg byk ragam nie. thou i may be unnormal sumtimes, i juz wish that mayb juz mayb if im normal, wud d destiny changes? if i wus that normal, cud i be d one making u hapy? and i doubt i cud. i really do.. u shud like ignore every time i told u dat i liked u in the past. (or did u even get it when i told u?) i hope u did not get it and juz assume i wus a confused gurl back then.. it wud be a nicer pic like that kan? heh. thou u said that thing wus just komplot but still on dis dy onwards, iv made myself to draw a line. a line btween u n me so dat next time WHEN I HEARD FRM SUMONE ELSE THAT UR TAKEN, MY SHOCKNESS WON'T COZ MY BLOOD PRESSURE TO FALL AS MY BRAIN IS OLEDI PREPARED FOR MY EARS AND HEARTS NOT TO BE TORN WHEN I HEARD THAT. no,no,no. jealousy? wut shud i be jealous of? i juz hate to be the last to knoe.. dats all.. dats it!