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Sears Tower unveils glass balconies on Skydeck.

'The Ledge,' the new glass balconies suspended 1,353 feet (412 meters) in the air and jut out 4 feet (1.22 meters) from the Sears Tower's 103rd floor Skydeck Wednesday, July 1, 2009 in Chicago. The Ledge will open to public on Thursday. (AP Photo/Kiichiro Sato)

p/s:

i gotta see it myself to believe it..
chicago, anyone? :)

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1. Bekas kekasih saya adalah :
aizat dan cgp

2. Saya sedang mendengar :
bunyik kipas

3. Mungkin saya patut :
lebih beribadat

4. Saya suka :
makan

5. Sahabat-sahabat baik saya :
otak brilliant semuanyer

6. Saya tak faham :
laki gila bola

7. Saya kehilangan :
saat2 manis menjadi remaje

8. Ramai yang berkata :
sy chomeyy . hahaha

9. Makna nama saya :
yang terkenal

10. Cinta itu adalah :
tidak ter describe kebestannye

11. Di suatu tempat, seseorang sedang :
tdo

12. Saya akan cuba :
makan lg pasnie

13. Ayat SELAMANYA membawa maksud :
forever

14. Telefon bimbit saya :
samseng kampong

15. Bila saya terjaga dari tidur :
sy nk g toilet

16. Saya paling meluat apabila
org suro dgr diaorang mengumpat

17. Pesta / Parti adalah :
tempat yg aku peal nk pg

18. Haiwan yang paling comel yang saya pernah temui ialah :
anas

19. Peringkat umur yang paling menyeronokkan bagi saya ialah :
entah

20. Hari ini :
mak pening kepale

21. Malam ini saya akan:
makan

22. Esok pula saya akan :
cuba jumpe parvin

23. Saya betul-betul inginkan :
kekurusan

24. Ketika anda lihat wajah anda di hadapan cermin pagi ini :
sy senyum

25. Pusat membeli-belah atau arked permainan :
klcc

26. Makanan Barat atau Jepun :
Jepun

27. Bilik yang terang atau gelap :
gelap

28. Makanan segera adalah :
menggemokkan

29. Ayat terakhir yang anda katakan pada seseorang?
mak dah makan.dah bg dah kat bilik dia..

nothing to say..

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1)What color do you think of when I say...

Anger?
black
Confusion?
white
Inspiration?
pink
Shy?
yellow
Agony?
=grey
Sleep?
= purple
Chipper?
= entah
Beautiful?
=pink
Morning?
=green

2)Would you rather be named...

Andrea or Aimee?
= wat d
Emily or Erica?
= sensitive part erica.. haha
Kelsey or Casey?
= casey
Madeleine or Marina?
=madeleine
Alec or Aaron?
=Aaron
Ryan or Ross?
=ross mcm kaak ros lah plak
Dylan or Daniel?
= diana danielle?
Jack or Jordan?
=jack
Gabriel or Gavin?
=gabriel

3) How often do you...

Brush your teeth?
=2 times a day
Eat breakfast?
=once a day lah. apekah..
Check your email?
=bile online..
Go to the mall?
= slalu lah gaks
Go to the beach?
=ko bawak aku pg aar, ko x bwk pehal aku nk g..
Play card games?
= zaman skolah bile prep..
Have at least 20 minute phone calls?
= ya, selalu
Paint your nails?
=x pernah..
Wish you were happier?
=always!!


4) Did you ever want to be..

A veterinarian?
= tidak
An astronaut?
= mungkin
An artist?
= sambilan, boleh lah. hahaha
A school teacher?
= lecturer jemputan? haha
A housewife?
= when i settle down
A firefighter?
= suka nengok jer
A princess?
= ini aliah musa..
A lawyer?
= tidak..
A doctor?
= sedang menuju.. on my way, on my way.. iA DR SHASHU. ameen.

5) Would you consider yourself..

Materialistic?
= NOPE
Pessimistic?
= sumtimes
Avoidant?
= mayb
Sarcastic?
= when im angry..
Talkative?
=ya tp kalo x da mood,nak ckp sepatah pon aku malas..haha..
Strange?
= according to anas
Intelligent?
= hee
Middle class?
= up lah skett
Lucky?
= mungkin

6) In the next twenty-four hours, will you...

Talk to someone you care about?
= yupp
Go to work?
= define work
Go to school?
= mayb. owh bukit merbah..
Be in a different city?
= erm..entah.
Read a book?
= mungkin lah sgt
Watch a movie?
= dunno
Go to a dentist/orthodontist appointment?
= dah lamer tidaks
Do your laundry?
= tgk lah
Tell someone "I love you" ?
= mak!!!!!!!

7) a)True or False: Family...

I have two brothers or more.
= F
My mom lives with me.
=true
My grandparent(s) live with me.
=false
I have half-siblings.
= ade kot
I am the oldest in my family.
=true
I am an only child.
=false..
I have 15 cousins I can name off the top of my head.
= maybb. brape byk sepupu aku entah. agak ramai lah belas2..
The nearest Aunt or Uncle lives less than an hour away from me.
=true

b)True or False: Food...

I am allergic to chocolate.
=false
I like vegetables more than fruit.
= both same like2
I have tried pizza dipped in ranch sauce.
= ranch sauce?
I've never eaten kiwi fruit.
=false
I love junk food.
=not really..x minat sgt..
I love to try new food.
=depends la..kalo nampak sedap,aku mkn..hahah..
Ketchup goes best with fries(chips).
=yup..
I like fried rice.
=ske! sgt..
I hate sushi.
= nope.

8) How many...

Pairs of shoes do you have?
= byk ler.aku pompuan..
Songs do you have on your music player?
= xde..ade yuna je kot..
Hours of sleep did you get last night?
= 7
Times have you had alcohol?
=never!
Books have you read/started reading in the past month?
= severals.. for finals.. :)
Windows in your house/apartment are open?
= closed like prison
Pets do you have?
=0..haha..
Kids do you have/want to have?
=3..
Minutes does it take to get from your home to school or work?
= 20 min


9) Have you ever...

Spilled a cup of grape juice on the carpet?
= aku nakal time kecik, so mungkin penah
Played spin the bottle?
= kat sri inai dulu
Played Twister?
= tuh makanan kan? hee..
Been caught doing something you weren't supposed to be doing?
= selalu
Walked out of a movie because it was horrible?
= nope
Given the finger to someone on the street?
=x penah
Been so sad/angry that you started laughing?
= sumtimes
Been in a wedding?
= dah lame tak g.. mun! cepatlah november...
Been in a situation where you almost died?
= yes.. i broke down like lame lah gak..thank u allah for making me alive..

10) Misc...

Are you stressing out about anything right now?
= tgh jual mahal.. haha. stress siot.
Do you think before acting or act before thinking?
= act dulu.heh.bahaye sial.
Do you act upon your emotions and instinct, or logic and reasoning?
= x sure..
What are some personality traits you find appealing in a potential partner?
= beriman, polite, berckp bila perlu, think b4 act.. tak membazir.. dgr ape aku bebel tanpe memotong and mengjudge sesuke hati..
How have you changed as a person in the last 5 years?
= revolusi seyh..
If you could do anything you wanted right this moment, what would it be?
= g haji, bungee jumping, tour 7 wonders of the world..
Is there anyone you can totally relax and be yourself around?
= pkck, anas, nie mmg totally. heh~
Did you ever wanted to say something to someone, didn't, and regretted it?
= x sure.. if i did ever regret..
Are you scared about the future?
= nope.bring it on!

it dosent matter, dosent it?

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tak semena-mena,

terkenang wajah seorang musafir...

heh~


sgt2 memohon agar diriku bersatu..
masih byk langkah perlu diatur agar tak tersungkur dan nmpk canggung..
shahirah, hidupkan hidupmu dgn sesungguhnya, kerna DIA.....

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1. Last beverage: sky juice
2. Last phone call: mun, lu dah tempah kad kawen, lom?
3. Last text message: ey, u dh stat blaja ekh?
4. Last song you listened to: ct nurhaliza's in IB :)
5. Last time you cried: thinking of how jahat anas saying dia nk turun kl and takmo bgtau.. (of course its a joke tapi ya laa, kecik ati laa plak. hee)

HAVE YOU EVER:

6. Dated someone twice: have u dated someone once?
7. Been cheated on: mayb
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: ?
9. Lost someone special: define special
10. Been depressed: haha (does dat explain? (: )
11. Been drunk and threw up: daaa...

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:

12. black
13. light pink
14. light purple

THIS YEAR (2009) HAVE YOU:

15. Made a new friend: entah
16. Fallen out of love: not yet
17. Laughed until you cried: anas!
18. Met someone who changed you: pkck
19. Found out who your true friends were: yes
20. Found out someone was talking about you: back stabbing ker? penah2..
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: woo.. giler?
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: facebook eh.. hurm, like 70% i guess..
23. How many kids do you want to have: 3
24. Do you have any pets: birds. awang namenyer. tapi dah almarhum..
25. Do you want to change your name: i love my name!
26. What did you do for your last birthday: makan cake?
27. What time did you wake up today: 10.. gle lambat!
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: online ler.. haish! cuti nie...
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: clinicals? (owh puleezz)
30. Last time you saw your Mother: one hour ago..
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: nothing! biarlah begini dari begitu atau mcm tuh.. coz akhirnyer, its u. ur left wif u..
32. What are you listening to right now: bunyik kipas? :)


33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: cikgu kat britishcouncil dulu..
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: the lembap internet! wat la streamyx!
35. Most visited webpage: facebook (shame shame) and some blogs
36. Whats your real name: Shahirah Shuaib
37. Nicknames: shuu, ashu, shashu, kak yah, kakak, kak, dunia, makcik? :) , mate, guni beras(bapak aku.. biaser lah..) and latest one shash.. cool lah gak. haha..
38. Relationship Status: single lah
39. Zodiac sign: libra
40. Male or female?: f
41. Elementary?: sri inai, sktm 2
42. Middle School?: TKC
43. High school/college?: TKC, matric londang, matric uia, cucms.
44. Hair colour: black
45. Long or short: dah nk long..
46. Height: no idea..
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: mayb
48: What do you like about yourself?: dat most of the time i really couldnt care less
49. Piercings: ears
50. Tattoos: nope
51. Righty or lefty: rite

FIRSTS:

52. First surgery: in a few months time.. (posting jer.. :))
53. First piercing: zaman kanak-kanak
54. First best friend: nadia najib.. where r u?
55. First sports you joined: i was not born to do/like sports
56. First vacation: singaporee
58. First pair of trainers: sekolah rendah kot

RIGHT NOW:

59. Eating: nope
60. Drinking: nope
61. I'm about to: sleep at d sofa
62. Listening to: masih bunyik kipas..
63. Waiting on: kemalasan ku berlalu utk beribadah..

YOUR FUTURE:

64. Want kids?: hendak..
65. Get Married?: lagi lah hendak..
66. Career?: ER departmnt

WHICH IS BETTER:

67. Lips or eyes: eyes eyes eyes x100
68. Hugs or kisses: can i have both? hehe
69. Shorter or taller: taller
70. Older or Younger: doesnt matter
71. Romantic or spontaneous: spontaneous
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: both
73. Sensitive or loud: loud
74. Hook-up or relationship: both
75. Troublemaker or hesitant: both (i'm horribly indecisive)

HAVE YOU EVER:

76. Kissed a stranger: no
77. Drank hard liquor: no
78. Lost glasses/contacts: yes, bloody idiot specs, where r u!
79. Sex on first date: no
80. Broken someone's heart: mayb
82. Been arrested: no
83. Turned someone down: yes
84. Cried when someone died: yes. ustaz baem.. (alfatihah..)
85. Fallen for a friend?: bila aku bengong.. yes.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

86. Yourself: obviously.
87. Miracles: ya.
88. Love at first sight: kdg2.
89. Heaven: yes
90. Santa Claus: apekahh..
91. Kiss on the first date: kalo dia husband aku,leh laa bodo..
92. Angels: yes

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: crush ade lah. hee.
95. Did you sing today?: yes. di IB bersame ct. ;)
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: entah
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: to meet my 17-self. and tell her everything. EVERYTHING.
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: the day i blanjer a supposedly not suppose to blanjer human being. haih. i surprise myself jugak nway.. heh~
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: sumtimes....

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erti hidup pada yg memberi..

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p/s: tersentuh dgn last part heroin nye falsafah hidup.. byk bende dlm hidup nie, yg perlu kita belajar.. lebih2 lagi kpd makna sebuah cinta yg unggul(hanya pada ALLAH).. dan langsung juga mengingtkn aku pada diriku yg sebelah lagi.. hurm.. life must go on, babes.. la ila ha illallah...

org bercakap..

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aku: itu suara org berckp ke, tv?
ans: kalau tv, suara org berckp juga lah kan?

aku: (dah start dah, dia nie.. pecah perut aku gelak)

aku: mmg lah, tapi maner samer!
ans: ya lah, suara org berckp..
aku: tapi mcm suara tv!
ans: (suara mcm impress.. ) ya ke?

aku: ya lah! iksh!!

arigato partners in crime!

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pochat: kurus nk mampos..
peanut: vogue nyer,makcik..
aku: maken bulat as usual..

terus ke depan, ok.. terus!!!

now what?

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ok, dah habes pro exam..

done wif the weekly assesments..

now what?

rotation 3rd yr clinicals..

starting wif ong..

aliah,nana, zue, apart..

haish..

down but predictable..

musti tabah hati..

now what?

holidayying wif unfinished electives..

facebooking like mad..

usrah..

now what?

siapkan dirimu,shahirah.. its a long way to go frm now......

p/s: rasa nk rebah jer.. allah...

SEDAR!

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Sekarang bukan masa berkabung. Sekarang bukan masa termenung. Bangkitlah dari tidurmu. Kita perlukan REVOLUSI. Revolusi hanya akan berlaku jika anda SEDAR:

1) S - Sikap : Buang semua sikap negatif (malas, menyalahkan orang lain, lambat datang training, kurang membaca, tak mahu terima kekalahan, rasa macam bagus dll.) Pupuk sikap positif (rajin, muhasabah diri sendiri bukan muhasabah hakim, datang awal, banyak membaca, belajar menerima kekalahan, rendah diri dan mahu belajar dll.)
2) E - Energetik : Bersemangat. Ada passion. Mahu buat yang terbaik. Mahu menang. Mahu perbaiki kelemahan. Suka membaca surat khabar dan menonton berita. Boleh membuat kajian dengan banyak dan efektif tanpa merungut. Sanggup datang latihan walaupun sibuk dengan kerja-kerja lain. Tetap datang latihan sebagai sparring walaupun tak masuk team. Nak belajar bukan nak berlagak.
3) D - Disiplin : Pengurusan masa yang baik. Datang awal. Datang setiap hari. Banyak berkorban bukan banyak alasan. Tidak kenal jemu dan penat. Mematuhi arahan jurulatih tanpa prejudis. Menerima segala keputusan jurulatih dan penasihat tanpa rasa tidak puas hati. Membuat segala tugasan yang diberikan dengan bersungguh-sungguh. Menjunjung imej dan nama baik universiti semasa pertandingan.
4) A - Analisis : Cari kelemahan diri, jangan cari salah orang lain. Jangan mudah mencari 'scapegoat' untuk dipersalahkan. Muhasabah setiap latihan dan setiap perlawanan (yang menang atau yang kalah). Cari sebab kenapa kalah dan cari sebab kenapa menang? Cari jalan untuk memperbaiki kelemahan diri bukan cari jalan untuk melarikan diri.
5) R - Redha : Kembali kepada Allah. Ingat, kemenangan bukan datang drpd hakim atau jurulatih, dan semestinya bukan drpd anda. Kemenangan datang drpd Tuhan. Oleh itu, mintalah kemenangan drpd-Nya, mintalah kejayaan drpd-Nya. Sentiasa ingat dan beribadat kpd-Nya barulah permintaan kita dikabulkan. Patuhi perintah-Nya tinggalkan larangan-Nya, Insya-Allah kemenangan akan diberikan kepada kita.

sedar.. bile nak sedar nie, shuuu!

very funny!

mun: 

bagus ar mak (nenek).. mak sorang jer yg perasan kak yah(aku)  kat mane dlm gambar nie.. 

aku: 

(blur sbb tak pezen pun ade gambar hantar mokhtat g mesir kat airport bwh meja makan.. ) mane2? (carik, tapi mcm xde jer..) xde pun, mun..

mun: 

(gelak) lah, lu kan tangkap gambar mase nie.. 

neks + mun : 

(gelak terkekeh..) 

*sigh.. very funny neks.. very funny.. 

the daughter's not so famous confession...

of course, i inherited his confidence, his adventurous attitude.. his panas baran  and above all, his insight towards the world.. iv done reflections thruout my life wif abah.. like looking to a glass of water, abah thought me that life is not only half empty, it cud be haf full as well.. depends on how u see it, and totally abah gave me his extra eyes.. to see and appreciate things. to be brave. to be brave...

 its not that i talk to abah dat often cuz he's alwez busy wif stuffs like meeting, etc.. but then, the moments i had wif him wus the productive ones.. 

ALLAH, thank you. i have abah. and he's more than enuf dat i can ever wish or ask for....

hpy abah's day!

luv u, babah...

saturday night palsy!

org laen balik hari khamis lagik.. tak pun hari jumaat..kami pulang hari sabtu! 

jummat ade program.. best! bila cinta berbicara ;) 

as for aliah, makcik dia dpt ambel stuffs hari sabtu.. so she tag along to bila cinta berbicara..tq bro for wanted to come.. =)

ya allah, cintakanlah aku pada dia yg mencintaiMu.. 

p/s: hendak yg soleh jer tak cukup utk berdoa pade yg Esa.. have to be more specific.. like penyabar, berharta, etc.. 

touching.. especially pada saat 4:55 and onwards..

ya ALLAH, tq so much sbb takdirkan aku ada emak.. ada abah..

CHANGE

hari ini saya menyahut cabaran utk drive kereta membelah jalan raya menuju ke majlis makan2 kesyukuran semua org pass pro exam dengan jaya nya..alhamdulillah~ 

sekalung tahniah kepada cik co pilot 1, 2, 3 and 4.. 

co pilot 1 : aliah musa

co pilot 2: zubalqiah 

co pilot 3: shasha

co pilot 4: isha 

1: bro, bagik signal.. 

    xpe bro, ini jalan kita; terus jer.. 

    elok2 bro, setraightt jerr.. 

    tekan minyak lagik, nie bukit nie.. 

    kiri sikit.. (padahal kanan..) 

    tak nak betulkan seat ke? 

    

2: shashu, seat belt! 

     eh, eh.. (sambil buat muka cuak bila sikit lagik nak hantok kenderaan lain..) 

     jauh lagik ke, nie.. iksh, 1o km lagik... (haha. hina gle pilot.. sape lah pilot itu.. ;) ) 

     SHASHU! kajang kiri, kiri.. (cemas) 

3: kita taknak ikut diaorang (iffah, maya, etc..) balik umah ke?

     ok, jom balik now.. (mcm dia pgg kunci jer, haish.. )

     uuu, i takut lori... 

4: its ok, ashu.. ur doing fine.. job well done dan etc words of encouragement dari cik isha..

selamat pulang, kita semua..

ingat.. cuti2 juga.. tapi amik lah peluang cuti nie utk mengasah minda jadik lebih hebat.. iA! 

HOLIDAY,HOLIDAY.. LETS GO! 

=) 

     

      

     

elective....

it's too soon...needd moooore timme....

kawen? giler pe..

xm? abes dah..

hols? aah kot.. cuz planning mmg tiade di situ.. haih~

kepade zubalqiah..

inilah ZA.. 
haih~
yg itu, huem..tutup buku je lahh..

 i kejarr MO sekarang.. (gelak tak sure.. haha)

sgt!

im 22 not yet.
i luv to b me.
i thot iv changed but now And then the spirit juz worn out. i keep forgetting the important things in life, keep holding on to false hopes, keep trying to impress the ppl dat i shud hv said gudbye long ago, and sumhow im tired to smile already..

tired of faith. tired of love. tired of hopes.

its easy for me to fall for sumone..
cuz im not complicated at all..
only things become twisted when i realize that its wrong to be simple..

oh well, matter of definitions, ey? i hv a very broad definitions of life that sumhow i keep forgetting and allow myself to cramp in darkness like nobody cares..

i live for today.. sumtimes trap in the past and sumtimes not at all woorying bout tomorrow..
i dunno y, but my worries r lesser nowdays.. i dun worry much nemore like i used to.. i juz dun gv a damn..

i dunno and i dun care--i said dis to a fren when she asked me about wats the layers of the foot.. and i felt so confident. haha. like im telling the truth without even have to hide that i dunno and yet i dun care..

owh. watever. im a new me everyday=)

revisited describing me in facebook. (i told u, i xde keje... ;) )

musim durian.. =)

Have you ever
Been on a plane : Yes
Swam in the ocean : penah
Fallen asleep at school : hobi
Fell off your chair :jatohkan org penah lah
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call : penah
Saved e-mails : of coz
What is your room like : kosong
What's right beside you : stuffs
What is the last thing you ate : puan firdous blanjer mee shrimp penang....

Ever had
Chicken pox : dah
Sore throat : penah
Stitches : tadika-ganas gile org tolak aku
Broken nose : Nope

Do you
Believe in love at first sight : tidak lagi
Like picnics: malas.. tapi suke

Who was/were the last person
You danced with : hamidot kot
Last made you smile : dia....

Today did you
Talk to someone you like : no..
Kissed anyone : no
Get sick : recovering batoks...
Talk to an ex : nopes
Miss someone : strangely no one.. mayb mak nel..
Who do you really hate: they..

Random
Is there a person who is on your mind now : no one
Do you like your hand-writing : kdg2
Are your toe nails painted : pehal
Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in : beqs, alieya
What color shirt are you wearing now : green light2
Are you a friendly person : tgk musim..
Do you have any pets : anas? haha..
Do you sleep with the TV on : errrr...
What are you doing right now : tgh tunggu kwn2 blk dr alaman..
Can you handle the truth : insyaallah
Are you closer to your mother or father : Maks
Do you eat healthy : yes , maybe...
Do you still have pictures of you & your ex : entah....
If you're having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to : ALLAH
Are you loud or quiet most of the time : haf-haf?
Are you confident : iA, ya..

5 things I was doing 10 years ago
- crush dgn amirul, g tusyen, lawan ckp cikgu BM yg aku dh lupe nama dia.. , borak2 dgn buddy sambil tunggu bus skolah dia datang, kena bully dgn budak2 6 wawasan.. haih~

5 things I would do if I were a billionaire
buat yayasan shuaib&rubiah(name mak abah),
buat hospital yg combine dgn hotel =) ameen,
g haji every year dgn mak abah, sanak saudare sume org lah aku angkut, AMEEENN
g slimming spa.. ngeh2..
menyumbang utk jln dakwah...

5 of my bad habits
- cepat marah2, cepAT benci org, cepat suke org, makanx ingt dunia, dan byk lagiey..

5 places I am living in
- ampang je ler..

im tagging myself. (xde keje nk mampos)

i did, i do..

-bitterheart- by sape entah...tapi sedap..

alhamdulillah..syukur~

cungratz semua.. cungratz.. alhamdulillah, allah hu akhbar.. 

slamat melangkah ke dunia sebelah lagi.. the other side of the world.. (wow, mcm tak cayer jer.. iksh3x) 

=)

post utk midah!

owh hamidah yg tampak confuse namun licik.. thanks for those times yg dunia i terbalik and u hv to tadah telinga mndengar.. thanx for d osce partner practise like cool gle lah kite.. haha.. sori lah my room mane2 yg u tak comfy, k.. syg kamu , si veteren licik.. ;) muahx!

post utk er-er!

dearest er-er@era,

knowing this free soul, her talkative syndrome and lay back chill lah attitude makes her the one of the most adorable fwen i ever had.. stay u, huh.. i remember those days i used to 'ulcerated' ur kereta 'lipas' merah dulu.. haha.. bodo nk mampos.. =)

post utk nana shasha bibiqs

nana kus, kau lah manusia pelik hyper reflex byk celah gigi a.ka scandals  yang mengagumkan.. belajar jer atas bed tapi leh plak masuk.. respect habes.. 

thank you so much for being strong, nen.. when i look at you, you dun potray pon wat the hell uv been thru and i really admire that.. stay persevere,ok.. doctor shasha bleh punyer cardiologist to be, iA.. =) 

AWARD MANUSIA PALING SENGET DI DUNIA JATUH KEPADE ..... ( semua org tahu..) haha..;) 

post utk aliah musa!

aliah musa yg adrenalin nya terlebeh..

sy sgt menghargai sisi-sisi kamu yg mulus.. 

sgt menghargai satu2nye manusia di rumah yg akan 'sape buang sampah harinie'..

aliah yg konon nampak jer fragile tapi dialah antare manusia plg kental aku pernah jumpe.. 

ingt lagi time psycho markah lekat kat dinding lu.. hehe.. those days...

=)

one big bow for aliah.. she's a butterfly now.. beautiful butterfly.. 

p/s: we hav a doctor pianist to be ;) 

post untuk hans and amal!

thank you.. thank you and thank you.. no other words left.. =) 

post untuk beqsy!

Gadis cantik santun budinya,
Selalu terkejut beruk tak kira masa,
Hidung mancung Arab keturunannya,
Siapa lagi kalau bukan Cik Aliah Musa. 

Menjadi buruan “beberapa” jejaka, 
Selalu dibuli oleh kami berlima,
Orangnya kecil tak tinggi mana,
Shazana Sharif si empunya nama.

Pergi ke kelas berseri-seri, 
Sentiasa busy kalah Perdana Menteri, 
Nampak garang tapi malu macam puteri,
Shahirah Shuaib nama diberi.

Kuat makan jangan terpedaya, 
Tak pernah gemuk geram dibuatnya,
Geng gossip kami jangan tak percaya, 
Tauke burger, Shazreen Zuhaira namanya.

Orangnya lembut keturunan diraja, 
Pandai memasak enak rasanya, 
Selalu tidur bila-bila masa sahaja. 
Engku Hamidah itulah orangnya.

dearest mate@zue@beqs@abeq@beqsy,

kamulah antare org paling dedikasi yg penah sy jumpe... tq utk perkare sweet di atas.. dah lama.. tapi tak terlalu expired utk merase terharu setiap kali membacenye..tq!=) 

kepayahan kamu utk deal dgn seorg manusia yg sewel dan berombak2 mood dan sulcusnya seperti shahirah shuaib amat dihargai.. muah2!

xox: shash@mate =)

tears in my eyes..

and i can't stop

p/s: aku malas tapi kepingan menerobos dunia yg memenatkan itu.. putih lab coat, merah darah, dan serabut manusia pelbagai ragam dari pelbagai lapisan tapi puas hati sbb ini apa yg aku nk. rasa apa yg aku rasa? =)

petikan may 8..

yup. still merasa.....

=)

kau dan aku

kau dan aku adalah satu tak kira apa
segala rintihan aku engkau selalu ada
biar kata memisah kita
biarkan saja kerana terbiasa

mengejar mimpi
yang pasti akan aku
sentiasa merasa kehilanganmu
ku akan tunggu saat bertemu

tiada henti walau di mana kita berdiri
di dalam dunia ini, biar sampai akhirnya nanti

semua tak terang di mataku
walau warnanya menyala 
ingin merasa namun, aku takkan cuba
biar kata memisah kita, biarkan saja
kerana terbiasa

credit to aizat and isma yusof 

anas dedicate kat aku..

haha. 

tenggelam timbul

dah lama aku 'puasa'..

puasa dari YM, dari internet berjam2, dari blog..
itu pun terlepas satu entri sebab (tak tahan nak luahkan jugak rasa dlm jiwa bergelora dilambung ombak) haha.

begitulah....

pro exam telah habis.

ya, habis. mcm tak cayer. biar betul, yang..

ya lah. betul2.. bukan cubaan..

kata2 senior, kata2 hannan n amal, kata2 prof semua kembali berlegar2 dalam kotak pikiran..


"u'll gonna do juz fine.. "


fuhh.. aku sebenarnyer mcm everytime nak give up nangis terguling2 kot.. tapi gagah jugak, tgk muka confident beqs, tgk muka slamber hamidahs, tgk muka cuak isha yg terror (pon still cuak) so aku mcm agak normal lah utk cuak.. hehe, muka nana yg busuk tapi kecil2 tetap cili padi = rujukan seisi rumah dlm ape2 hal yg kejahilan.. hehe.. muka aliah yg stress tapi tibe2 senyum, (hehe. ade gak org senget mcm aku;) ) and muka era yg rileks tapi dlm ati sape jer arr yg tau..

and dgn muka2 inilah sy gagahkan jugak, turun tangga rumah d27b, tangga lagi, dan masuk kunci kerete , kami pergi.....berjuang!!!!

12,15,16,17.. dan esok 18 jun.. announcement result 3rd batch...

so, now what?

TAWAKAL ,TAWAKAL, TAWAKAL...

insyaALLAH, tiada yg lebih baik dari takdirnya.. tiada yg lebih baik dari ketentuanNYa.. jadikanlah kami org yg bersyukur ya ALLAH, dgn apa jua nikmat dan kurnia yg Kau beri..

p/s: ZA! aku tabik spring ko! mmg actor kesayangan aku ah, afte p.ramlee =)

dan dia..

aku minta maaf.
aku mmg betul2 tak tahu..
walau kau tak bgtau..
tapi aku patut dh agak..
yg dia itu denganmu ada apa-apa..
sungguh aku tersentak..
tapi aku ok.. ok giler..
sbb kau dan dia sepadan..
aku dan dia.. langit dengan mantel bumi..
dan aku masih pula mcm boleh berbangga pula dgn diriku..
kerna nurani ini pernah tersentuh oleh seorg yg sebaik dia yg kau lebih dulu kenal..
aku redha..
penuh redha.

ya allah. aku tau aku sape..
kdg2 sampai aku rasa aku tak layak utk byk sgt bende yg kau takdirkan utk aku..
byk sgt nikmat yg kau bg aku tapi aku merungut pulak kepada sikitnya nikmat yg org lain ada yg kau beri tapi aku xdpt..

aku menyesal.
aku insaf....

rebah.

ya allah.. tq for today.. uv alwez given me a gud instinct..im appreciating life. every second of it..

p/s: sahabat semua 3rd batch.. one down! 3 more to go.. we can do this!! insyaALLAH! PRO EXM, BRING IT ON!

P/S: ya allah, aku takut sungguh aku lupa kau dalam aku takut pada yg selain kau....

mimpi

cool giler.
ZA aku pg cannes tuh. bakal. xtau biler.
sbb filem karaoke buatan msia layak msk pertndingan.. msk festival cannes lepas kaki bakar filem u weii (kalo x silap)
tapi bukan aku kesah pon..
tapi aku jadi terkesah sbb, pergh, si ZA nie maju siot.. menuju puncak mcm lagu AF tuh..
aku still lagi kat cni. tetibe teringt muke pkck.. (ingt, ape makna kejayaan tuh.. berjaya dunia akhirat..)

hurm..

kalo ZA leh g cannes..

aku nk tak jemu tuntut ilmu.. mcm rase best jer..
nampak jer sume bende, mcm prof latif, prof thuaibah, dr hamidah.. bila diaorg cerita sth, mata diaorg bersinar tau.. like sume tuh depan mata..

hurm..
bila nak susun sulcus ko yg berterabur nie...

hurm..

cramping

Aphasia means "partial or total loss of the ability to articulate ideas... due to brain damage."



•Motor speech area of Broca
- inferior frontal gyrus between the anterior & ascending rami & the ascending & posterior rami of lateral sulcus
- important on the left (majority)
- paralysis of speech (expressive aphasia)
- retain the ability to think the words they wish to say, can write the words & understand their meaning

- speech is produced with great effort & poor articulation, in brief utterances & word errors
- comprehension preserved


Broca's aphasia is sometimes called disfluent aphasia or agrammatic aphasia. It is named after Pierre-Paul Broca (1824-1880), a French surgeon and anthropologist who first described the syndrome and its association with injuries to a specific region of the brain.
Agrammatism typically involves laboured speech, and a lack of use of syntax in speech production and comprehension (although patients who present with agrammatic production may not necessarily have agrammatic comprehension).

well, for a moment, imagine u hv expressive aphasia..

An example of agrammatic speech:
Ah ... Monday ... ah, Dad and Paul Haney [himself] and Dad ... hospital. Two .. .ah, doctors ... and ah ... thirty minutes .. .and yes ... ah ... hospital. And, er, Wednesday ... nine o'clock. And er Thursday, ten o'clock .. .doctors. Two doctors ... and ah ... teeth. Yeah, ... fine.


The second classical aphasic syndrome is named after the German neurologist Carl Wernicke (1848-1905).
Wernicke's aphasia is sometimes called sensory aphasia or fluent aphasia.
The speech of a Wernicke's patient is often a normally-intoned stream of grammatical markers, pronouns, prepositions, articles and auxiliaries, with difficulty in recalling correct content words, especially nouns (anomia). Words may be meaningless neologisms (paraphasia).

The patient in the passage below is trying to describe a picture of a child taking a cookie.

C.B. Uh, well this is the ... the /dodu/ of this. This and this and this and this. These things going in there like that. This is /sen/ things here. This one here, these two things here. And the other one here, back in this one, this one /gesh/ look at this one.

Examiner Yeah, what's happening there?

C.B. I can't tell you what that is, but I know what it is, but I don't now where it is. But I don't know what's under. I know it's you couldn't say it's ... I couldn't say what it is. I couldn't say what that is. This shu-- that should be right in here. That's very bad in there. Anyway, this one here, and that, and that's it. This is the getting in here and that's the getting around here, and that, and that's it. This is getting in here and that's the getting around here, this one and one with this one. And this one, and that's it, isn't it? I don't know what else you'd want.

Wernicke's patients seem to suffer from much greater disorders of thought than Broca's patients, but even so, Broca's is expressive aphasia.. they are unable to express themselves fluently.. (tension,ok bcoz u cant say it out wut's inside..) so they are said to be unhappier than Wernicke's patients, who are often blissfully unaware that nothing they say makes any sense at all,(receptive aphasia) and whose higher-level thinking processes are often as haphazard as their language is.



*well, either Broca or Wernicke.. bersyukur sy ada speech area.. utk memahami dan difahami..


p/s: nen.. i think u wernicke lah.. =p

• referring to: cerebral hemisphere notes prof nasa and www.ling.upenn.edu/.../ling001/neurology.html

shuu, bile msk notes nk buat daa..

hidup

(karya si buddy ; skoolmate six years in a row.. tgn ko sgt dicemburui lah.. esp aku aar.heh)

kdg2 bila dah rase mcm lama sah hidup, lupa pula byk angan2 di antara hidup yg patutnya aku tinggalkn. tapi seronok lah berangan, bak kata zue, free jer berangan nie..

kdg2 bila suka sth/someone, i tend to like it so much. it puzzled me sumtimes. wat on earth im thinking?

kdg2 kita malu nk jadi diri kita sendiri.

diri kita yg penuh kekurangan dan diselitkan kelebihan yg selalunya org tak gunakan sepenuhnya..

maybe its time to let go.. let go of the ppl yg dh lama let go aku..

aku xnak hidup dlm angan2..

p/s: karya aliah musa lukis bunga2 cinta akan di uploadkan.. tungguu..;)

hidup utk mati

teringat...

puasa

perlu utk puasa anas abdillah, shahirah!!!

recently, hv been addicted to him! like talking and talking (aku rase dia pon dah mcm, bila ko nak stop nie..haish~)

cis..

asal lah nie..

shuhhh! go away,ok!

im not going to let anything stand between dat dream and dis dream..

p/s: eh, si bebel makin jauh kah?? ada dlm hati agaknya.. entah~

nak gadoh?

aku pernah bergaduh dgn adik aku (tgh bilang dgn jari) erm, lost count, actually.. dari gaduh main kejar2 , main congkak, sampai lah gaduh , 'mak suroh ko , laa.. asal lak aku?'

aku pernah gaduh dgn kawan2? entah. mugkin zaman beban kerja YM yg bertimbun dulu, barangkali.. mungkin. entah, tak pasti. kalau ade problem or benda tak puas hati, aku bebel sorang2 jer.. takdelah sampai bergaduh.. ala, mcm lah aku nie kwn yg baik sgt pun.. so, y hukum org lain bila she/he didn't sumhow be a gud fren to u? whch is sumhow diaorg tak perasan pon.. hello, like everyone is perfect! heh~

yeah, hv been bergaduh gak dgn mak and abah. zaman remaja agaknya. now im pre adult. mungkin. i fight for going out with frens, with ex yg bull****, and watever a remaja thought they deserve..in other words, 'freedom'.. wat the hell im thinking back then! i hv no idea~ but i realize one thing tho, that its not easy to be a parents. dulu mak pegang muat tapak tgn, abah belikan vitagen and toys even dia penat gile, and now your big grown up daughter dah pandai maki hamun like she knew better(or she thot, she knew..) heh. it sure crushed hati mak abah to see how things changed right in front of ur eyes.. plus, do u knoe y a drug addict parents, still love their drug addict useless child?

sebab mak bapak kita sayang kita tanpa syarat.. tanpa syarat!


p/s: syurga bawah tapak kaki ibu..

hari-hari adalah hari ibu..
selamat hari ibu to all the mothers in the world especially sahabat2 ku yg kepingin nk kahwin setelah membaca blog romantic kak mila (sapa terasa?? haha)

jgn gaduh dgn parents lah.. * u won't win! =)

so, wat type of a writer am i?

Menulis ibarat kita berbogel, apa yg kita tulis sebenarnya menunjukkan siapa kita. Oleh itu tulislah elok2. (Zahiril Adzim)

well, i shud say, im a confuse writer, who will lay out what i feel first then only hope for my rationality to come later and save me frm being childish and silly and lame and u name it..

heh.

pro exam... aku menghitung hari!

we will make it through...

I want the spirit of study smart, working hard and being proactive, aggressive (not aggressive as in aggressive in behaviour but in searching knowledge and improve skills) and motivated to stay with me until I achieve all my goals. This is my pledge at the moment.

kak wanie...


p/s: aku malas tapi kepingan menerobos dunia yg memenatkan itu.. putih lab coat, merah darah, dan serabut manusia pelbagai ragam dari pelbagai lapisan tapi puas hati sbb ini apa yg aku nk. rasa apa yg aku rasa? =)

life as it is..

i got a new PDA..samsung...
bukan samseng kampung , ok.. (bro, nie mmg lawak aar.. haha!!)
n was being asked by bro spontaneously charming either it had a camera..
either iv taken a pic with it.. (which is actually the real Q.. =) got u!)
plus, senyum senget n syndrome excited terkejut kamu makin menjadi2.. haih.. nk dkt pro xm agaknye hormone sume head wire...

and there's SM syndrome by the one n only sultanah balqiah.. (i tetap nak Datuk or Tan Sri or Tun drp you, ok.. jgn bila dh duduk tinggi silang kaki x itu, dh buat2 x ingt kat kitaorg plaks.. =p )
Tun Sakinah best lah kan, sbb nama kina mmg dah Tun tapi kalo dia dpt Tun mesti pelik kan nama dia? ngeh2..

congrats nana, sbb dpt jadik famous as fiona.. kalo ada org mintak signature tuh nanti, jgn lah buat2 segan plak, haha.. siap bow at the end.. mantaps.. tuh yg mahal tuh.. ;)
sapa nk tau lebih lanjut sila ke blog era @ er-er, ok.. =p


era, kamu tabahkn hati.. first time tgk mutiara jernih jatuh dr kamu..... pilu hati ini..

Tanya pada Tuhan

•Selalu aku bertanya dan terlupa apa yg perlu utk ditanya sebenarnya..
•Adakah aku bertanya kerna aku mahu bertanya atau sekadar tertanya2 apa yg akan dibalas oleh yang ditanya…
•Aku bertanya lagi, kuatkah keinginan ini utk bertanya kepada tuhan, dalam doaku.. Tentang rasa tanda tanya dalam hati perihal sesorg yang pedih sekali utk dimengerti.
•Masihkah ada ruang utk setiap pertanyaan ini utk dijwb oleh Tuhan atau aku yg buat2 tak nampak jawapan yg dicampak pada setiap soalan demi soalanku..
•Tuhan, aku kepingin sekali.. Utk menatap setiap balasanMu terhadap lintasan hatiku..
•Namun acap kali aku takut.. Adakah jawapanMu sama dengan keinginanku? Dengan kemahuanku?
•Mengapa aku bertanya kalau aku takut mendengar jawapannya?
•Aku bertanya dengan harapan kau membalas persis apa yg dibisik hati ini, Tuhan..
•Layak kah aku?
•Layak kah dlm ribuan yg tertanya2, adakah aku jawapannya?

•ya, aku tau..Tak selalunya yg kita mahu itu kita dapat..
• kerna yg terbaik utk kita tak semestinya bagi Tuhan itu begitu..
•Kita bisa memilih, tapi yang terpilih itu atas izin tuhan juga..
•Bukan?

lintasan hati...

•Hati ini pasti merasa hilang.. Sabar lah.
•Masih segar mesra itu tapi hati juga berkeras mahu mengatakan sebaliknya.
•Kerna hati ini tidak mahu lagi sekali menjual rasa yang tulus hanya kerna rasa puas nikmat berkasih, bersayang..
•Hanya kerna dunia bisa membenarkan kemungkaran dan kekotoran mengalir deras, tak bermakna aku harus terjebak sama.
•Tabahkan hati, pejuang..
•Satu hari kesabaran ini pasti akan dibalas Allah dengan sesuatu yg lebih2 baik.
•Lenyapkan rasa kecintaan kepd manusia yg wujudnya hanya sementara Cuma..
•Rasa cinta pada dia itu hanya membazir.. Jika tidak disertai dengan yang halal, dgn yang hak, dengan keredhaan tuhan..
•Mengerti?
•Hari ini yang kau lepaskan demi maruahmu, demi rasa malu yg tebal, demi rasa takut pada tuhan, percayalah, adalah lebih baik dari permata berlian dan semua isi dunia yg fana ini…
•Biarlah..
•Hanya tuhan yg tahu…

watak-watak penting

aku hanya mahu jadi yang biasa2 sahaja. kenal org yg biasa. keluarga biasa. hidup biasa..
aku tolak kebiasaan juga kdg kala. utk perkara2 yg penting seperti tuhan ku. agama ku. ada benda yg lebih penting dari biasanya hidup ini dari redupnya matamu yg memandang.
berat. berat utk tidak buat suatu yg sudah sgt terbiasa dgn hidup ini..
aku tau kau sudah terbiasanya paham dgn tindak tanduk seorang budak yang biasanya begini, lagi2 aku yg biasa ini.. doa yg biasa aku lafazkan, aku seperti mati mahu menadah pada hari yg biasa ini..


mungkin bagimu semua ini hanya biasa sahaja..
bukan biasa pula, bagiku..
bukan biasa...

hari ini untuk esok..

aku berjalan dan berjalan. mengharap bayang2 sore itu pergi. pergi lah melalui jendela putih yg kacanya retak kerna Atan marah kan bola dan bukan kakinya.
aku lupa pada kau sejenak. kau yang rupa seakan2 Atan. atau mungkin perangai Atan sama juga dengan kau. marah2 saja kerjanya.


aku berlari.cuba berlari. dan akhirnya aku lelah. penat.
penat dengan pengejaran dan pengejaran yg sia2.
kau bertandang entah dari mana.
hanya untuk mengusir aku pergi.
pergi,pergi,pergi..
aku akur tapi kaki ini tak mahu berganjak..
Jgn jadi mcm Atan, terhegeh2 marahkan benda yang tak sepatutnya dimarahi.
aku terguris lah.


itu sahaja...

sedih dlm gembira..

beratnya hati..
asal lah mcm nie..
salah aku lagi ke??
xpe lah.
ya lah.
sedar diri.
maaf, mencuri masa..
sengaja begitu.
tapi kau sedar juge.
mmg sengaja.
tapi x ade lah smpi melampau.
tak lagsung!!!

reflect

gran3x reflection..

prof ckp bleh buat 5 ayat..

in 5 sentence.. so,


sy blaja utk jadi manusia.. di sini, cucms.

done.

nah, prof..

=)

the beginning of an end

• end of public health
• akhirnye.. pening dgn byknye bende nak kena telan then kuar final bende2 itu.. differentiate health edu n health promotion.. hurm. tahniah!
• i felt cold inside.. please shashu, jgn 'mati' dlm tuh. hang on! dh xde 'nafsu' utk ape2.. ya, tak rase ape2 langsong. takut tidak, suka tidak.. kosong.. kosong..
• the beginning of a long lost war.. y long lost? coz iv not being gear up pon for pro xm this 12th of june until nab ckp, 'xpe, u sebulan lagi baru rasa' which hit me hard.. am i that hati batu?
• i need a holiday but beku lah kan.. gila, ape holiday.. kang tak holiday, lagi gila???
• ape2 lah.. life must go on, kate mr gui.. =) saye nak blk college balik!! but minus those form 4 n f5 lah.. disaster, disaster..

buddy's words..

Now, why don't we try to be deep, or shallow, or mellow.or whatever it is that we ought to be.

bud, aku cilok jap eh.. sgt mendamaikan..


ok, smalam beku, harinie damai.. apekah otakku?

haih!

any different?

ada..

saya jadi lagi cepat..

bayangan, 10, 9,8,7,6,5,4,3,2,1.. dlm kepale otak..

adrenalin pumping,ok..

(tapi boleh pki lagi ke.. haih!)

attribute to Rasulullah..

seringkali ku cuba membunuh amarah itu..
entah dari mana datang bertubi2..

kalau baik, datangnya dari sana.
jika tidak, asalnya dari sana juga.

kerinduan itu menerjah kembali. tiba2.
semakin lama semakin sesak.
tapi,
aku masih jauh. jauh dari dia yang Kau paling sayangi.
terkial2 berlari, terjatuh lalu tertiarap.

targis.hina..

masih jauhnya aku dari mengikuti jejak2 perjuanganmu.
amat jauh dari huluran tangan seorg yg mulia

cahaya..
aku dambakan semuanya.
menyelubungi di sana kah barangkali?

menangis aku sendiri. lalu
aku mohon rindumu itu ada padaku.
moga mentari sejengkal bisa kau bantu hindar..

setidak2nya, aku mahu, tuhan..
aku mahu agar diberi kesempatan..

menyebut namaMu dan namanya di hembusan nafas terakhir ku.


ameen ya rab bal alamin..

p/s: zue, cayo'! =) kamu yg terbaik.. buat yg terbaik!

SAHABAT SEMUA, JEMPUT DTG ESOK, 22HB, 8MALAM, KE SMBUTAN MAULIDUR RASUL PERINGKAT CUCMS.. PERFORMANCE BY STUDENTS N PROF..

Beku!

asal aku slalu sebut beku since hari nie.. haih, beku betol agaknye..

public health mmg nampak sng, bikin buat sekali, terjelopok lah gak.. naseb tak berguling mcm PT.. heh. disaster2.. dgn last week nie, patot pulun lah shahirah ooii. haih!

owh ya, rabu nie, 22hb, sila turun dtg tgk last event yg batch kita handle ini b4 pro, n marilah melihat si zubalqiah bersajak ya.. sempena smbutan maulidur rasul.. 

sape ade jubah2 ala arab tuh (biha baju kamu wajib perform,ok. hehe) sila lah pakai ke majlis yg menghargai seorg insan yg patut kita rindu and sebut namanye setiap hari.. nabi muhammad s.a.w.. 

jumaat nie, last reflection block ramai2..masa! demi masa, sesungguhnya manusia itu dlm kerugian kecuali... (haa, tau xpe...)

then, WAR! pro exam, kau tunggu! aku dtg nie!

p/s: lutut terketar sbenarnye.. 

mcm ajis 'hey hang, hang jebat...' ..

 ya allah, bagilah kekuatan! permudahkan kami semua ya allah, go through pro exm dgn keredhaanMu... ameen!

best student mmg mcm nie..

it wus not the first time for me.. penah je stay smpi lewat malam.. 

but it wud be a first time to ber 4 org n berhimpit2 n tungkus lumus menghabiskn sth yg azab gile nak abes. org balik umah and dtg kembali ke college.. tgk kitaorg pelik.. 'dari mana, buat ape?' 

ehem2. 'best student mmg mcm nie'... 

(best student lah sgt.. heh!)

thesis! kau mmg beku lah. rase nk cekikkk jer~ erghh!

balik dgn 3 org, terhuyung hayang..

 dunia, tidurlah... kenapa sibuk sgt nie!

byk nya kerja nak dikerjakan sampai lena yang tak disengajakan itu mempermainkan.. 

ada ke mimpi, scl dah abes buat? chronic seyh.. sangat! haih~

p/s: kalo bro tanye, ckp *********** blanje.. kalo nana tanye, ckp ********** blanje, kalo bhav tanye, ckp ****************,  kalo isha tanye, kate *********** blanjer.. wee...

atas hak2 keselamatan, nama * adalah tidak bertepatan dgn bilangan nama sebenar.. ;P

(aku rindu nenek aku!!)

ampun

di satu malam yg dingin di cyberjaya d27b..

bro, kelakar gile.. kawan gua nie, bla3.......bla3

eh, sama dgn gua, cerita nie.. bla3..

eh, meh sini bro baca blog nie..

lah, nie kan blog kite...

eh, (tgh gelak pecah perut)..

bro, g balik lah tempat duduk lu..

hahahaha..

patut lah sebijik..

shashu nie kenape, buat lawak memlm bute nie..

haish.. ampon2..

morale story: blog hopping, make sure tgk dulu blog sape yg dibace.. jgn maen trabas jer..

heheh.. kelaka, kelaka..

insaf...

dah terbiasa agaknye utk memberikan response, bila org mengadu masalah, akan aku response, yg berupa cadangan jawapan.. aku kira aku meberikan pandangan ape yg aku rasa.. aku lupa yang sebenarnya yg penting ialah apa yg org itu rasa.. pedihnya hari nie. satu pelajaran yg bernilai. menggegar satu kepala. berbekas sungguh tatkala menyedari, bukan jawapan yg ingin mereka dengari tapi hanyalah mahu kita mendengar tanpa prejudis.. tanpa judgemental gitu. which i find hard. hard at first because, i dun thnk i wus wrong at d first place.. but there is no right n wrong here.. the best way to response is back kate hambe tuhan nie, jgn ckp yes or no tp tanya soalan kasi dia berfikir mcm kita berfikir.. =) saya angkat tgn dan kaki! yes. tq for today! allah hu akhbar..

wuts going on...

• zahiril adzim.. a.k.a merah..
  

merah puteh, tv3 4.30.. tgk bila bosan.. hee. lakonan bersahaja dari ZA, kdg2 mengingtkn aku pd si anas yg seakan2 jelmaan watak merah juge.. sikit lah..

kamu ape khabar sahabat? final exm, ok?

• last week of public health.. last block.. masyaallah, cepatnye masa berlalu...
  

• 'ok ke, i amek teater? ' ...... dush. dpt reply yg x sanggup nk post kat blog sbb meruntun hati gak lah sbenarnye to hv a knock in d head rather than words on encouragemnt.. haih..
• ya lah.. i take ur advise.. tak buat lah teater.. fine~ i'll be doing counselling for BEFRIENDERS.. dpt tlg org and buat ape yg i ske gak. wee. tq? heh..

Nick Adenharts death...(a reflection of a Terendak survivor)

• i may NOT know who on earth is nick adenhart but its violet clear that he is an awesome pitcher for making it to the major leagues only by my age, 22 when im shahirah shuaib still strugles to finish up my MBBS..
• oh well, the point is, nick is gone, alright. and im still alive!
• and he was dead, stuck by a motorist who ran a red light.
• SO, next time u wanna do all the worng things in life, pause and think, will i be making other ppl suffer? or rather, ASK YOURSELF,can i deal facing with the ppls that i had made into tragedy?
• we r all leaders. if not to a bunch of ppl,organization, family, or a country, but also to ourselves. thus,when u think u wanna give up and 'hit' the red light instead of waiting for green, think back, and think again.. is there anything wrong in myself that i had the nerve to even think or even choosing of doing a wrong thing in my life?
• the truth is, we know wut is wrong and wut is right in our life. we know that going to majlis ilmu is good for us. we know that ilmu yang berguna dapat membantu kita menjadi seorg insan yang lebih maju dan berdaya saing. yes, we know, we know.. but what do we do? we choose not to do anything. we choose to go out, play games all day long and all the rubbish list goes on..
  
  
  
  
  “Here today, gone tomorrow, you never know,” Texas Rangers manager Ron Washington said. “That’s why you’ve got to enjoy today."
  
  
  “A young man realizes his dream of making the big leagues, pitches six shutout innings, drives home and he’s gone,” New York Yankees manager Joe Girardi said. “Your heart goes out to that young man and his family. It makes you realize how precious life is. You have to be happy to wake up every day.”
  
  
  “It really puts things in perspective,” he said. “Don’t take anything for granted, No. 1. Appreciate what you have.”
  
  
  “The first thing you think about is his parents, his family,” Cleveland Indians manager Eric Wedge said. “It shouldn’t take a great deal to have perspective in this game, but when something like that happens, it brings you back down to earth.”
  
  Indians infielder Ryan Garko remembered seeing Adenhart during spring training.
  
  “Reality just kind of sets in, that this is a game, that this is a job, that there are a lot more important things in life (which is life itself),” Garko said.
  
  
  “It makes you want to hug your kids. It just goes to show you, tomorrow’s not promised to anybody, so enjoy today,” Reds manager Dusty Baker said. “

terendak spirit

AUGUSTA, Georgia (AFP) - Anthony Kim made Masters history on Friday with a record 11 birdies in his second round and said that reading about the death of baseball player Nick Adenhart had changed his mindset.

The Los Angeles Angels rookie pitcher was killed in a road accident in California on Thursday just hours after making his Major League Baseball season debut.

Kim, one year older at 23, said he had been upset after a disappointing opening 75 on Thursday but had put things into context after reading a newspaper report of Adenhart's death on Friday morning.

"The last line in the story was: 'You never know what can happen, even at 22. You have to live every moment of every day like it's your last.'

"I said to myself - Look, it's been a dream of mine to be at the Masters my whole life, and there's no reason to pout about a bogey or a 3-putt, but enjoy being out here and enjoy all of the hard work that was put into it by myself and my parents, and go out there and have some fun.

"I think that's what made the 11 birdies a lot easier."

i knoe..

its easier to pass on the blame.. yeah, blame me..

but y do u think its ur fault..

bcoz i shud hv did done sth.. mayb.perhaps.. or i shud hv been der..

i shud hv like promoted it to death.. or have an extra pengaruh helping hands so that my org2 pengaruh itu boleh tarik semau org dlm linkungan pengaruhnya utk ke apa2 session.. yg juga sbenarnya adalah utk kebaikan bersama..

and maybe there are times u need to learn how to deal wif ppl yg marah, dissapointed.. not to bulat2 and terima wat they said and put the blame on u.. sumtimes u cn be the fault but its not totally ur fault, dosent it.. they did promised to come.. i did told when and what..

so, nak buat apa lepas nie? maybe u cn ajak the gurls yg semangat sket nie utk help u out..


yes2. i did.. and we'll do solo this time.. u want it, u get it..


sekian.


dear u.. now i knoe wuts wrong wif me.. i dun like to be scolded. one. but the fact that i thot org akan marah2 i and blame myself is another torturing mental prob so stress thingy thats bothering me.. which i need to let it jump out of the window one day insyaallah.. tq theraphy session..sgt membantu.........