the Days to remember

-....aku maafkan kamu, tak perlu kita bertemu, cukup kau tahu...-
-a song by jamal abdillah and malique-


1. Alhamdulillah. my wikend are preoccupied with beneficial things and seandainya Allah tidak mentakdirkan kebaikan-kebaikan ini nescaya akan tercampaklah hambanya ini menghadap perkara yg sia-sia. Alhamdulilah. :) started with laman bestari, sunathon batu pahat, uia arrivals and kde prog. Alhamdulilah. Moga Allah memberi balasan syurga kepada murabbi ku yg berusaha utk mengisi hati2 kami dgn kasih syg Allah.

2. xpe lah mak, tak payah hantar lagi, kalau diaorg ckp mmg byk kereta, means mmg kita akan potong line org lain. kita kan menzalimi org lain... hantar esok jerh..
-walaupun mak bantah tapi aku yakinkan dia, hidup nie bila ikut perspektif akhirat dia jadi lebih senang, lebih mudah.. dan Alhamdulillah bila mak nampak aku yakin, aku ppg stand aku, she give in.. she called lee tayar and "xpe lah, esok jer.." ;)

3. seeing and meeting the genius ikhwan, sheikh H is the most wonderful thing that i can never imagine. the first time i knew and heard of him from cik N, i have vow to Allah that I will do my best in dakwah and one of it iS because of kewujudan org2 yg berkesanggupan maha tinggi demi dakwah seperti beliau dan ramai lagi unsung hero yg moga Allah merahmati dan memasukkan semuanya ke syurga firdausNya, ameen..

4. maal hijrah. aiyo, x terbaca pun doa akhir tahun and awal tahun.. shame, shame, shash.. not good! mcm mn lah boleh terlepas pandang nie..

5. P and S came from kuantan, one to see deir fren's marriage and 2nd to drop by and meet me. xde lah drop by pun sbb diaorg bermlm satu hari in putra, so Alhamdulillah dgn bersebab mereka dtg, i go out from my comfort zone and bersihkan ground floor mcm sparkling awesome jugak lah. Alhamdulilah. Although sahabat2 mantap lain mungkin sedang gigih study tapi I am very the most happy dapat kemas ground floor and jadi tuan rumah yg the best. although I am not 100% sure what P and S felt with the hospility but P did said, wah ini mmg layanan terbaik nie, and Alhamdulilah Allah permudahkan aku untuk permudahkan mereka:) and we went to Al Sinnai restaurant (mcm tuh ke speeling nye?) at sungai merab area.. restaurant AL punya family. Alhamdulilah i ate the steambot main dish and baru perasan yg i have no idea mcm mn nk handle mkn steambot. selama nie abah and mak je yg sibuk buatkan. adoih..

6. bufday mak su! ingat nak lawat dia lah. plus kids school hols.. ow yes, mak intans nie nak anta R pg prog cuti tak nie dis 30 hb? or shud i rekomen sth more cheaper ekh.. bende tuh dis disember... hurm... nanti lah.

7. Alhamdulillah. Hanya Allah bisa menyentuh dan memegang hati-hati mutarabbi kita. I have seen a potential in F to grow and explore all potentials. Alhamdulilah. May Allah make it the best for her, in all her actions and doings..

8. i slept about 2 hours before reaching tol salak selatan. 10pm til 12 am. Ya Allah, mmg sgt mengantuk and i am also bit shock as upon waking up, ada seorang kakak motor nie was on my tingkap side and sedang watching over me. I did not remember is she was trying to call my name, or try to bangunkan me or whatever, neither i remmbr did i turunkan tingkap, but i did remember talking to her, so i must have turunkan tingkap which is SO BAHAYA sbb helloo, kang dia acid splash aku pukul 12 mlm..padan muko ko.. anyway, i remmeber she said, ok, sy pergi dulu ya, and she drove her motorcycle sommothly laju away from me yg tgh terpinga2 sbb i just realized its 12 am and mak is waiting at home and yes, 7 miscalls! :/ oh nooo.. sori mak. sori adik.

9. i told S sth that i shud have not tell her actually. about gdp and etc.. and all those marah-gila things. May Allah forgive me. May she learnt a lesson of my random babling and rambling.

10. oj note! nvd ape nye. dah 5 weeks tak terbuat, ya Allah!!! but if we have started (on anything, on sumthing..) thus we are never too late. and actually we r not late bcoz we have started! yes, yes.. i am coming today oj! just u wait..cikgu T, i dedicate this quotatation frm sheikh to u.. please please proceed. iA Allah is always by our side :)

11. i am ashame of myself, really. why on earth am i deeply worried of psy presentation whereby Allah is always there for each of us. InsyaAllah Rabu nie ada case for me. Rabu and khamis actually.. bcoz jumaat baru presentation :) O Allah, im not gonna be sad. I am going to be patient. temukanlah aku dgn patient yg dpt kami belajar drpnya, ya Allah. ameen.. ya rab bal ala meen.

12. :) iA i will talk to u. iA i will be redha with whatever response u'll give me. i am ready. iA :) i did my part, alhmdulilh. iA.... :)

so, how?

mcm mn nk lupa org yg kita syg tapi x syg kat kita? org yg kita suka tapi tak suka kat kita..so, how?

(ditanya oleh seorang kawan di suatu hari yg hening..)

dan aku termangu. soalan yg serupa hendak ku aju juga. tapi tak tahu pd sape..

entah dr mn kekuatan. aku katakan pantas dan tenang..

buat apa nk lupa? tak payah lupa..

hah? tapi...buat apa nak ingat kat org yg tak ingt kat kita?

betul.

so, how?

kdg2 mencintai tuh tak semestinya memiliki.. kalau kita betul syg org tuh, ikhlas.. kita tak perlu pun menuntut dia syg kita blk.. syg kan tak boleh paksa.. mmg lah sedih sbb kita kan manusia biasa.. nak syg dan disayangi kembali tapi tuhan tuh adil, yang.. dia lebih tahu. kdg2 kita rasa suatu perkara itu baik utk kita tapi tak semestinya utk Tuhan, itu adalah terbaik utk kita..

seperti lembaran novel atau buku dongeng cerita purba.. kita tak sabar nak tahu apa happy endingnya.. itu buku, ini hidup.. hidup ini penuh dengan perjuangan.. dari mak ayah kita struggle nak kahwin, sperma sturggle nak reach ovum, mak abah struggle nak besarkan kita.. dan sampailah kita sekarang..dpt hidup dgn lebih baik dan sempurna.. dari kita sedih dengan satu org yg tak suka kat kita, baik kita gembira dgn byknya org lain yg syg kat kita.. kan?

susah wey..

(: aku tahu. tapi cuba lah senyum sket. bukan mati pun dia tak suka kau..

(: ok laa..

kakak punya pasal?!

adik: kak, adik xleh tdo malam lah.
kak: asal?

adik: ini semua salah kakak
kak: wey, asal aku lak..

adik: ya lah, kak asyik stay up jer.

kak: aku ok jer tdo...(asal pulak salah aku. yg ko ikot stay up sapa suro..)

......\- _ -./......

kak: dik, nie aku dh jumpa article sng tdo. baca lah.

adik: kakak baca kan lah. nanti cerita kat adik...

kak: ha ha ha (sabau je lah..)

Must-know info to help you get your zzz's

By Barbara Brody

1. Set a Bedtime Alert (baekk.. sng jahh nie..)
Most of us already use an alarm to wake up in the morning, but sleep expert Michael Breus, PhD, author of Beauty Sleep: Look Younger, Lose Weight, and Feel Great Through Better Sleep, suggests setting it at night as well. "I tell people to set their alarm for one hour before bedtime, which reminds them to begin what I call the power-down hour," says Dr. Breus, who is also a spokesman for the Zeo Personal Sleep Coach. He says you should spend the first 20 minutes of that hour taking care of any necessary chores (like walking the dog or making your kids' lunches), then spend the next 20 minutes on hygiene (washing up, brushing your teeth, etc.), and save the last 20 minutes before bed for relaxation. You don't necessarily have to meditate, if that doesn't appeal to you; you can also do deep breathing exercises, read a book or even watch a little TV (as long as it's not too stimulating).

2. Don't Clear Your Mind (nen, i will sound like a schizo lah kan doing dis? haha)

Experts say anxiety and depression top the list of reasons people have trouble sleeping. Part of the problem is that many of us just can't seem to quiet that internal voice that starts rambling on about the worries of the day. Of course, if you can clear your mind, go ahead and do it. But if that's impossible, don't force it--you'll only end up panicking about the fact that you're not sleeping, says Paul McKenna, PhD, author of the soon-to-be-released book I Can Make You Sleep. Instead, try slowing down your thoughts. "Practice saying anything and everything that comes into your mind to yourself in a slow, monotonous, drowsy tone," says Dr. McKenna. It doesn't matter if you're thinking about what to buy tomorrow at the grocery store or how a big presentation at work is going to go. If you slow everything down and talk to yourself in an even tone, you'll find it's that much harder to keep worrying (or stay awake).

3. Count Numbers--Not Sheep (really works ke nie. aku ingt mr bean jahh bwat bende nie)

Another great way to quiet those racing thoughts is to count backward from 300 by 3s, says Dr. Breus. Unless you're a math ace, you probably won't be able to focus on anything else while you're doing this, which means you'll end up distracting yourself from your stressful thoughts.

4. Get Up a Half-Hour Earlier (seriuss? menarek.. will try..)

Yes, you read that right! If you're suffering from chronic insomnia, try getting up, for example, at 6:30 instead of your usual 7 wakeup time--no matter what time you fell asleep the night before. You may be extra-sleepy for a little while, but this is hands-down the most effective way to reset your body clock, says Dr. McKenna. It works because it teaches your body that it can't catch up on sleep in the morning, so eventually you'll start feeling drowsier earlier in the evening.

5. Consider Seeing a Professional (ada org nak sponsor,hah?)

A sleep psychologist is someone who specializes in gathering info about your emotions and your behaviors specifically as they relate to sleep. Often found at sleep centers, a sleep psychologist can usually help resolve your sleep issues in just four to six sessions, says Joseph Ojile, MD, founder of the Clayton Sleep Institute in St. Louis and a spokesman for the National Sleep Foundation.

6. Don't Worry If You Can't Sleep Right Away (ada org yg risau ke? haha.)

You shouldn't pass out the second your head hits the pillow. If that happens all the time, it's a sign that you're sleep deprived. (Ditto for nodding off during boring meetings and long movies.) Ideally, it should take 15 to 25 minutes from when you lie down to when you drift off to sleep, says Dr. Breus.

7. Go to Bed When You're Tired (hobi ku. and those days of SCL siap baru tido will come back. but in a mere more interesting ways... i hope! go go clinicals!)

If you're having ongoing sleep troubles, don't worry so much about the fact that it's almost midnight and you have to get up in less than seven hours. Forcing yourself to stay in bed when you're not sleepy is just going to contribute to more tossing and turning, says Dr. Ojile. Instead, get up, do something relaxing, and go back to bed whenever you do feel tired. You might end up exhausted the next day (but that was bound to happen either way under these circumstances), and the following night you should have better luck getting to bed earlier.

-jalan2-marah2-boleh blah-

its 4.50 am in d morning.

how i wish i cud sleep.

mayb i need to wait.

so dat i won't get slimut babi for free.*sigh*

dun want.

so perlu stay up.

tadi ada keje sket.

ada lah.

jadik nnti br leh story.

kalo tak, tak syok.

anyway, kami ke sogo harinie.

beli bag, dan etc.

apa2 lah yg 50% and above.

dan, owh, y laaa (gaya parvin..) kami yg marah2.

aku sedar itu.

kami yg passive aggresive disorder.

cuma thank god hidup aku dirahmati lagi.

ppl around me r obviously tidak semua bgitu.

especially pkck n anas.

usrah...

m16 sudah tentu part of my life la kan.

cucms.

up n down dgn titans.

i mean like, im imagining with all these angerness easily explode blamming game kami,

and all dis w/o u guys..

mmg life wud be like.. shallow mellow.

its hard to b bersyukur kan.

to think of how grateful u are wif everthng u hv..speeechless tiba2.

dan jika kamu hitung nikmat tuhan satu per satu, maka tidak terhitunglah kamu..

...tuhan telah memberi pinjam padaku anakku selama 10 tahun. aku redha dia diambil kembali olehNya. aku telah menggunakan nikmat tangan (or is it kaki? mata..? lupa..) ini selama berpuluh tgn.. tiba masa tuhan ambil kembali nikmatNya..aku bersyukur. aku redha.

dan adakah kamu bisa mengatakan kamu seorg yg bersyukur padahal kamu tidak diuji?

hey,kami yg marah2..

common lah.

CHILL, okay..(:

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memohon agar dirinya bersatu...

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1. Last beverage: sky juice
2. Last phone call: mun, lu dah tempah kad kawen, lom?
3. Last text message: ey, u dh stat blaja ekh?
4. Last song you listened to: ct nurhaliza's in IB :)
5. Last time you cried: thinking of how jahat anas saying dia nk turun kl and takmo bgtau.. (of course its a joke tapi ya laa, kecik ati laa plak. hee)

HAVE YOU EVER:

6. Dated someone twice: have u dated someone once?
7. Been cheated on: mayb
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: ?
9. Lost someone special: define special
10. Been depressed: haha (does dat explain? (: )
11. Been drunk and threw up: daaa...

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:

12. black
13. light pink
14. light purple

THIS YEAR (2009) HAVE YOU:

15. Made a new friend: entah
16. Fallen out of love: not yet
17. Laughed until you cried: anas!
18. Met someone who changed you: pkck
19. Found out who your true friends were: yes
20. Found out someone was talking about you: back stabbing ker? penah2..
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: woo.. giler?
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: facebook eh.. hurm, like 70% i guess..
23. How many kids do you want to have: 3
24. Do you have any pets: birds. awang namenyer. tapi dah almarhum..
25. Do you want to change your name: i love my name!
26. What did you do for your last birthday: makan cake?
27. What time did you wake up today: 10.. gle lambat!
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: online ler.. haish! cuti nie...
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: clinicals? (owh puleezz)
30. Last time you saw your Mother: one hour ago..
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: nothing! biarlah begini dari begitu atau mcm tuh.. coz akhirnyer, its u. ur left wif u..
32. What are you listening to right now: bunyik kipas? :)


33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: cikgu kat britishcouncil dulu..
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: the lembap internet! wat la streamyx!
35. Most visited webpage: facebook (shame shame) and some blogs
36. Whats your real name: Shahirah Shuaib
37. Nicknames: shuu, ashu, shashu, kak yah, kakak, kak, dunia, makcik? :) , mate, guni beras(bapak aku.. biaser lah..) and latest one shash.. cool lah gak. haha..
38. Relationship Status: single lah
39. Zodiac sign: libra
40. Male or female?: f
41. Elementary?: sri inai, sktm 2
42. Middle School?: TKC
43. High school/college?: TKC, matric londang, matric uia, cucms.
44. Hair colour: black
45. Long or short: dah nk long..
46. Height: no idea..
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: mayb
48: What do you like about yourself?: dat most of the time i really couldnt care less
49. Piercings: ears
50. Tattoos: nope
51. Righty or lefty: rite

FIRSTS:

52. First surgery: in a few months time.. (posting jer.. :))
53. First piercing: zaman kanak-kanak
54. First best friend: nadia najib.. where r u?
55. First sports you joined: i was not born to do/like sports
56. First vacation: singaporee
58. First pair of trainers: sekolah rendah kot

RIGHT NOW:

59. Eating: nope
60. Drinking: nope
61. I'm about to: sleep at d sofa
62. Listening to: masih bunyik kipas..
63. Waiting on: kemalasan ku berlalu utk beribadah..

YOUR FUTURE:

64. Want kids?: hendak..
65. Get Married?: lagi lah hendak..
66. Career?: ER departmnt

WHICH IS BETTER:

67. Lips or eyes: eyes eyes eyes x100
68. Hugs or kisses: can i have both? hehe
69. Shorter or taller: taller
70. Older or Younger: doesnt matter
71. Romantic or spontaneous: spontaneous
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: both
73. Sensitive or loud: loud
74. Hook-up or relationship: both
75. Troublemaker or hesitant: both (i'm horribly indecisive)

HAVE YOU EVER:

76. Kissed a stranger: no
77. Drank hard liquor: no
78. Lost glasses/contacts: yes, bloody idiot specs, where r u!
79. Sex on first date: no
80. Broken someone's heart: mayb
82. Been arrested: no
83. Turned someone down: yes
84. Cried when someone died: yes. ustaz baem.. (alfatihah..)
85. Fallen for a friend?: bila aku bengong.. yes.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

86. Yourself: obviously.
87. Miracles: ya.
88. Love at first sight: kdg2.
89. Heaven: yes
90. Santa Claus: apekahh..
91. Kiss on the first date: kalo dia husband aku,leh laa bodo..
92. Angels: yes

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: crush ade lah. hee.
95. Did you sing today?: yes. di IB bersame ct. ;)
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: entah
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: to meet my 17-self. and tell her everything. EVERYTHING.
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: the day i blanjer a supposedly not suppose to blanjer human being. haih. i surprise myself jugak nway.. heh~
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: sumtimes....

bila rumah kata pergi...

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arigato partners in crime!

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pochat: kurus nk mampos..
peanut: vogue nyer,makcik..
aku: maken bulat as usual..

terus ke depan, ok.. terus!!!

very funny!

mun: 

bagus ar mak (nenek).. mak sorang jer yg perasan kak yah(aku)  kat mane dlm gambar nie.. 

aku: 

(blur sbb tak pezen pun ade gambar hantar mokhtat g mesir kat airport bwh meja makan.. ) mane2? (carik, tapi mcm xde jer..) xde pun, mun..

mun: 

(gelak) lah, lu kan tangkap gambar mase nie.. 

neks + mun : 

(gelak terkekeh..) 

*sigh.. very funny neks.. very funny.. 

kepade zubalqiah..

inilah ZA.. 
haih~
yg itu, huem..tutup buku je lahh..

 i kejarr MO sekarang.. (gelak tak sure.. haha)

post untuk hans and amal!

thank you.. thank you and thank you.. no other words left.. =) 

life as it is..

i got a new PDA..samsung...
bukan samseng kampung , ok.. (bro, nie mmg lawak aar.. haha!!)
n was being asked by bro spontaneously charming either it had a camera..
either iv taken a pic with it.. (which is actually the real Q.. =) got u!)
plus, senyum senget n syndrome excited terkejut kamu makin menjadi2.. haih.. nk dkt pro xm agaknye hormone sume head wire...

and there's SM syndrome by the one n only sultanah balqiah.. (i tetap nak Datuk or Tan Sri or Tun drp you, ok.. jgn bila dh duduk tinggi silang kaki x itu, dh buat2 x ingt kat kitaorg plaks.. =p )
Tun Sakinah best lah kan, sbb nama kina mmg dah Tun tapi kalo dia dpt Tun mesti pelik kan nama dia? ngeh2..

congrats nana, sbb dpt jadik famous as fiona.. kalo ada org mintak signature tuh nanti, jgn lah buat2 segan plak, haha.. siap bow at the end.. mantaps.. tuh yg mahal tuh.. ;)
sapa nk tau lebih lanjut sila ke blog era @ er-er, ok.. =p


era, kamu tabahkn hati.. first time tgk mutiara jernih jatuh dr kamu..... pilu hati ini..

god gave me an angel..

aliah musa,thank u so much.. =) im more than grateful..

storm, go away

brain storm..

in dedication to the any survivors of a disaster make it cancers or heart brake or accidents.. allah always reminded us in a different ways.. live life to the fullest!

allah,ampunkan aku atas kurangnya kekuatan yg aku ada..

goiter

im not sure. where to start. i love history. i love math. but never biology act. its not easy. so i dun like it. so wats easy? i juz find it easy. talking is easy. english is fun. languages.. travelling is fun. but u must asked me y im here then. i did not decide it myself. i juz agreed to follow. i dun like complicated thngs but being complicated is much easier and fun than simple and lame.. so y trouble urself wif sth that does not drive u wild wif passion? im not troubling myself. i juz dun push myself. wif history, its der. u dun hv to read, u cn juz listen. my mum is suprb in history. i got A1 because she was der, to make it easy for me. she analyzed past Qs and check my work.. a sth dat no ordinary scholl teacher wud attend me to. math wus easy cuz sensei wus der. he help me by giving out jalan kerja yg maha senang and yes, he made thngs easier to understnd.. and now im here. wif no help n im not looking for help either.. jeez, u genius, now i see y i hate myself for hating dis exmfriday routine.. cuz i nvr find it to b easy... like d morning whee isha nana and beqs fight to knoe wuts positive wuts negtive.. i dun gv a damn.. its hard when everyone thinks its easy... and u dun~

new head, new body, old tail

dearest sayer.how wus d first day of 2nd year? i hope ur doing fine. even u cud be ngantok gile hell dlm clas prof hamdan and plus mayb agak mcm tak sentoh haram pon module dia, despite buat sctl lambat gile and mcq pon dh agak dah anta esok, but then, u shud be more time management thng nie kna jage tau.. mcm mn nk lawan zazu nie. nyampah tol tgk dia. "nyampah' lah. walau dia mmg chomel. haha. si gemok. u dun look gud lah in dat color. nway, i bought buku rm98 harinie.. hehe. naseb leh bank in kan duit..tapi aku lak risau. mungkin kah ade manusia yg bisa meloloskan diri dgn menghalimunankan diri? hurm.. biarlah.. ishani is secare rasminye in our group.. M16! GAMBATTE! =) der were so many expectations as usual.. and ade 3 org dak 3rd year yg kna repeat the whole year. god! xnak ok! jauhkan lah ya allah. aku tak sekuat itu utk mengharungi mata-mata yg memandang dan mulut-mulut yg bertanya serta wajah2 rakan yg sudah ke hospital utk clinical akan menghantui.. tak sanggup.. and guess wut? aneesa yg aku lame gle nak carik tuh is here! my god. she looked like ummu ok.. i thot she had connections with ummu but it turned out to be that she wus the gurl back in sri inai and the most terharu part, she remembered my name! god! ya allah, keciknye dunia nie.. we were so closed bck then, i rmmbr we had fights, play ting2, exchanged kad raye and all.. im so terharu ok.. rase mcm im the luckiest fren on earth! =)
today pon zaizul and zue step down as heads. ganti dgn nizam and wafa.. i hv doubts lah. cn we listen to dem? dis is not maen2 tau. the leaders will b d one who help us realize where we r going ahead.. but then i tell myself, nizam & wafa, prove me wrong! pliz prove me wrong!!

oho, i had hypoglycemia.. puase dgn perut sgt kosong. mcm nak pitam bile prof yong buat class skill blaja hape ntah. whch wus kind of like a wake up call lah jugaks.. tq prof. u guys are all so hebat. arigato! =)

shahirah, teruskan perjuangan! hari ini adalah hari yg terbaek. hari2 ku adalah complete. enough. rasa cukup bila kamu di sisi. rasa bahagia. (semua lah. bukan dia jer. haha~) bweks, go2 cayo'!!