one, two and twist..

No, its not the song lets twist again, like we did last summer... yeah.
but a twist of suprise.
u see, most of the time, its always easier to SAY it than to DO it.
especially the word REDHA.
Alhamdulilah.
My doubt have been answered today. i alwez doubt my ability of being redha.
After 4 days of internet fasting due to unpaid bills. hee. mak notty, lupa bayau,
happily suksesfully log in thru gmail, saw the CGP result, and

the word fail beside it, hurm.. seriously as a normal human, of course i felt, sad...
But there is a sense of accepting. Alhamdulilah.
I asked myself, fail or pass, what wud be better? i passing this and not passing in the here after, and all those reframe technique.

what Allah decided for me is the best!
actually i am just afraid that ppl , especially my hsemate wud thought that going to Imam Suhaib talk until late at nite on exam eve wud be one of the reasons dat i did not score but Allah calm me greatly by giving Sara, aishah and many other sisters who also went for the talk, a tremendously jolly high marks! so proud of u guys. as well as all my 70+ brothers and sisters in the batch who hav had ur 80 passing marks and above. yes, eighty is the passing mark for GCP certificate! cool kan? heh.
as for mine, sikit lagi tau nak pass. tapi, xpe. Alhamdulilah. this is the best:)

on the other note, pkck hd gud as well. making me jealous. in a gud way tho. nk beat dia! siap laa u.. haih!

and dear uncle,
please get well soon. my best fren's ayah, uncle zainuddin had dengue+chicken pox. warded yesterday in Amp Puteri.. kind hearts, pliz pray for uncle's speedy recovery. May this hikmah reunite and strengthen meng's family. iA..

next week, to be exact, 23rd Aug, i am officially a 4th yr med stud. hurm, may a better Shahirah u will be, shahirah. really like the group as well as i hv my sisters all lump in one grp however not in the same subgroup! not like. but to rethink again, mayb perhaps in other postings we may be able to mingle more greatly. as far as psycho posting is concern, my saviour are tim, neesa and biha! hee. at least! and at least, HKL for the Ramadhan month means going back and forth from home.. :) peace! life is heaven.

I.M.U?

A Sacred Conversation
Published on July 6, 2010 by Yasmin Mogahed

There is a time of night when the whole world transforms. During the day, chaos often takes over our lives. The responsibilities of work, school, and family dominate much of our attention. Other than the time we take for the five daily prayers, it is hard to also take time out to reflect or even relax. Many of us live our lives at such a fast pace, we may not even realize what we’re missing.

But there is a time of night when work ends, traffic sleeps, and silence is the only sound. At that time—while the world around us sleeps—there is One who remains awake and waits for us to call on Him.

We are told in the hadith qudsi: “Our Lord descends during the last third of each night to the lower heaven, and says: ‘Is there anyone who calls on Me that I may respond to him? Is there anyone who asks Me that I may give unto him? Is there anyone who requests My Forgiveness that I may forgive him?’” (Bukhari and Muslim)

One can only imagine what would happen if a king were to come to our door, offering to give us anything we want. One would think that any sane person would at least set their alarm for such a meeting. If we were told that at exactly one hour before dawn a check for $10,000,000 would be left at our doorstep, would we not wake up to take it?
Allah subhanahu wa ta`ala has told us that at this time of night, just before dawn, He will come to His servants.

Imagine this.

The Lord of the universe has offered us a sacred conversation with Him. That Lord waits for us to come speak with Him, and yet many of us leave Him waiting while we sleep in our beds. Allah (swt) comes to us and asks what we want from Him. The Creator of all things has told us that He will give us whatever we ask.
And yet we sleep.
There will come a day when this veil of deception will be lifted.

The Qur’an says: “[It will be said], You were certainly in unmindfulness of this, and We have removed from you your cover, so your sight, this Day, is sharp.” (Qur’an 50:22).
On that Day, we will see the true reality.

On that Day, we will realize that two rak`at (units) of prayer were greater than everything in the heavens and the earth. We will realize the priceless check that was left on our doorstep every night as we slept. There will come a day when we would give up everything under the sky just to come back and pray those two rak`at.
There will come a day when we would give up everything we ever loved in this life, everything that preoccupied our hearts and minds, every mirage we ran after, just to have that conversation with Allah. But on that Day, there will be some from whom Allah (swt) will turn away… and forget, as they had once forgotten Him.

The Qur’an says: “He will say, ‘My Lord, why have you raised me blind while I was [once] seeing?’ [Allah] will say, ‘Thus did Our signs come to you, and you forgot them; and thus will you this Day be forgotten.’” (Qur’an, 20:125-126) In Surat al-Mu’minoon, Allah says: “Do not cry out today. Indeed, by Us you will not be helped.” (Qur’an, 23:65)

Can you imagine for a moment what these ayat (verses) are saying?

This is not about being forgotten by an old friend or classmate.

This is about being forgotten by the Lord of the worlds.

Not hellfire. Not boiling water. Not scalded skin. There is no punishment greater than this.And as there is no punishment greater than this, that there is no reward greater than what the Prophet ﷺ describes in the following hadith:
“When those deserving of Paradise would enter Paradise, the Blessed and the Exalted would ask: Do you wish Me to give you anything more? They would say: Hast Thou not brightened our faces? Hast Thou not made us enter Paradise and saved us from Fire? He would lift the veil, and of things given to them nothing would be dearer to them than the sight of their Lord, the Mighty and the Glorious.” [Sahih Muslim]

But one does not need to wait until that Day to know the result of this nighttime meeting with Allah (swt). The truth is, there are no words to describe the overwhelming peace in this life from such a conversation.

One can only experience it to know.

Its effect on one’s life is immeasurable.

When you experience qiyam, the late night prayer the rest of your life transforms. Suddenly, the burdens that once crushed you become light.

The problems that were irresolvable become solved.

And that closeness to your Creator, which was once unreachable, becomes your only lifeline.

I.M.U

I Miss U , U who wakes up just for the sake of Allah's pleasure.

salute!

HARI INI

1) upgrade my ibadah
iftar, puasa sunat, sunat subuh, masjid trip, mathurat, Al-Quran, tazkirah to friends when ever I met them, remind friends about boycott Israel --> kawan bertanya: tapi ada org Islam/org Melayu yg keje di McD. mcm mn nk boycott? habis lah mereka xde kerja. <-- my reply: aku lebih rela mereka ini tiada kerja which i dun think its not possible to find other job, dari membiarkan saudara2 aku di Palestin mati dibunuh dengan peluru2 Laknatullah oleh sebab duit aku yang aku bayar kepada sekutunya McD utk mengeyangkan perut aku yg boleh sajer makan bende2 yg lain yg halal yg bersepah kedai2 makan selain drp McD kat Msia nie. rezeki itu Allah yg bagi, bukan McD! yes! Alhamdulilah, I said that loud and clear!

2)to widen my knowledge
MELEPAK di library;pinjam buku,baca buku, surgical recall, tolong 2nd year tlg OSCE jer tapi the night before jer; sori korang, i wish i had come earlier. Alhamdulilah adik2 walaupun ada yg tak lepas, tapi itu hukum alam, ada yg depan ada yg belakang, siapa yg ke depan terus maju! siapa yg di belakang, jgn pandang belakang! ;) CAYO'!

3)to bring gaps in family and friends a little closer.
SEBOK nye. best nye. haha. i went for futsal batch. i went to see JIMUM nikah and kahwin, alhamdulilah the ceremony was very very sweet and diberkati, u can feel the barakah u knoe, ehem2, bila lagi faran, kude, biha? haha. but tak dapat pg cameron trip batch. down gell. then i went to cultural week foundation. Chomel gle. In surah Al-Rum, ayat 22, Allah ada menyentuh perihal berbilang-bilang bahasa dan warna kulit. Indeed, its very inspiring. Maha Bijaksana sungguh Allah. BAYANGkan satu dunia nie orang Melayu. Iksh, tak bestnya. tak best langsung!
pastuh ada iftar di college.alhamdulilah berkumpul bersama dgn fikrah yg sama sgt mendamaikan. can't wait for Ramadhan! Moga persiapan kali ini lebin mantop dari tahun lepas, semoga ana sempat bersua dgn Ramadhan, iA.
pastuh lepak bersama aposh dan ferru di KLCC. kami berbual2 dari sekitar perkahwinan wedding of the year jamalina yg jua punya kontroversi2 tersendiri(mcm kahwin artis pulak) sehingga ke masalah sosial kawan-kawan hinggalah ke isu Palestin. Dh 7 bulan since i last saw Aposh. hanya berhubung melalui facebook sajer. dan Ferru, lagilah, dah 6 tahun tak jumpa, hanya berchatting dan berFB sahaja. Ferru yg baru balik dari France so sweet belanja saya makan dan beri saya dan Aposh cenderahati bracelet =) then around 3 pm gerak bersurai. Moga Allah pertemukan kami lagi di kesempatan yg lain, then menuju ke tmn melati, dh janji tdo rumah Meng(aktiviti-aktiviti bersama Meng: the Curve,JJ, MAUI's seri menanti 'illegal' mission), Maui/Jama kahwin di VILLA LIJAH in SERI MENANTI. MasyaAllah, Jama is kerabat and kahwin dgn kerabat. btw, this is an arrange marriage. wujud lg kah? xsangka. haha. apa2 pun, jamalina jamaluddin telah selamat bergelar isteri org! woot-woot! tahniah Jama. I will always remember my sweet-baran Jama...

esok launching IKRAM! TIME TO SLEEP. long day tomorrow!

till then, semoga Allah beri masa dan kekuatan utk aku menghancurkan jahiliah dlm diriku dan org yg aku sayangi. Amin!

alhamdulilah

selagi ada kudrat, ada akal, ada neuron, ada impulse, ada ATP, ada dunia berputar, selagi tuh ana takkan berhenti untuk melakukan yg terbaik buat agama, bangsa, negara. dgn izin Allah, iA.

chewah.mcm ikrar pulak. tak kisah lah. janji bila ana lupa, tlg lah ingatkan ana, yg ana pernah bersemangat mcm nie, smpi dh pukul 3 am pon rasa wah, nikmatnya hidup Allah bagi, nikmatnya iman Allah bagi. seronoknya Ya Allah, dapat jumpa macam2 jenis orang kat dunia ni. ada yang baik. ada yg sensitif. ada yg pelik.

tapi ana faham. ana pon ada kelemahan. dan kelemahan ini mmg kdg2 ana pun susah nak terima. mcm kdg2 ana sedih sgt, mcm mn lah boleh tak ingat, boleh lupa, boleh boros, kenapalah byk sgt masalah yg ana hadapi (walhal saudara di Palestin lagi byk dugaannya..)

yang ana perlukan hanyalah Quran sebagai pengubat jiwa. baru hari ini ana di ingatkan kembali perihal ayat Allah kegemaran ana. surah Al Baqarah :216

...but it is possible that ye dislike a thing which is good for u, and that ye love a thng which is bad for u. But God knoweth, and ye know not.

Ya Allah, sememangnya hidup manusia byk begitu. kita tension, kita marah, kita tak suka, tapi sebenarnya pembentukan diri kita itu lahir dari segenap byk ujian yg Allah beri. Terima kasih Ya Allah. I need to be tested. I need it. Thank you Allah. Maha Bijaksana, Maha Mengetahui.

ana sebenarnya rasa takut sgt bila habis exam, bila cuti. sbb ana rasa byk sgt masa terbuang. dlm family ana, kami mmg bukan dari kalangan org yg suka merancang. timetable style tuh, maaf ckp, mmg bukan kami lah tuh. tapi ana sedar, mcm Allah berfirman, quoted atas tadi, inilah sebenarnya ujian yg antaranya plg ana takut (selain drp ujian osce especially sbb tak tau nak jwb apa pada examiner bila dia tanya direct face to face tanpa wajah2 sahabat membantu bisik2 jawapan, ya Allah, luruh jantung..) ana takut sgt sbb di rumah kala cuti ini lah 'best friend' lama ana seperti siti malas, siti lembap, siti baran, dan sebagainya datang hari2 temankan ana. kdg2 ana rs tension sgt, kenapalah aku mcm nie, baik tak payah cuti, biar busy, tapi ana terima kali ini not as an excuse tapi as an opportunity. ini lah peluang patut ana balas balik kesilapan ana. kalau dulu ana 'sambut' silakan, welcome2 kpd siti malas, siti tidur dan etc, kali ini ana dengan mantapnya buat timetable dan jgn bg chance pada kononnya best fren ana ini masuk rumah. maaf, ana kna tegas kali ini. bak kata saudara Hilal Asyraf dari http://ms.langitilahi.com/

Akhirnya saya melihat betapa pentingnya peribadi indah. Sungguh, kadangkala manusia itu tidak perlu banyak bicara, panjang tulisan. Tetapi yang lebih memberikan kesan adalah akhlak. Akhlak meng’kompress’kan bicara dan menyalurkan mesej dalam bentuk yang lebih berkesan.

Sungguh, Rasulullah SAW jugalah qudwah dalam hal ini.

“Dan bahawa sesungguhnya engkau(wahai Muhammad) mempunyai akhlak yang amat mulia.” Surah Al-Qalam ayat 4.


Menggerakkan diri membina peribadi

Maka saya melihat, betapa penting saya perlu belajar untuk berbahasa pendek.

Dan meningkatkan lagi ketinggian kualiti diri saya.

Biar kependekan bahasa saya, memberikan kesan yang mendalam dalam jiwa manusia.


dearest cuti, aku takkan benarkan kau jahiliahkan diri aku, aku akan buktikan kepada kau yg aku, walaupun hamba Allah yg Lemah tapi aku juga mampu KUAT dengan izin Allah juga. Ya Allah, 'rehatkanlah' hambaMu ini dengan redhaMu.

p/s: esok atau lebih tepat lagi 5 jam lagi, adik2 2nd year CUCMS akan berperang dengan hebatnya, PRO EXAM paper SAQ. masya Allah. kuatkanlah hati2 adik2 ku, Ya Allah. Moga rasa takut itu kau hilangkanlah, lapangkanlah dada adik2 ku Ya Allah. Peringatkanlah mereka apa yg mereka lupa. Ameen.

weight it

i learn one thing harinie.. out of many ppl u jumpe, u'l sure regret knowing sumone. but dat feeling of hatred and menyesal went awy when i think of how bless i am to meet and be freinds with sumone yg will help u when ur in a disaster and not juz stand by u when ur ok,sounds and smells gud. in dem i hav my faith in humilty. in dem i find strength..
even sgt sikit org yg akan tlg kite but sikit is better than nothing. sikit is better than ramai tapi plastik..

which brought me to ponder and reflect. how wus i as a fren?
of course i hv my favourites and the one i better like to mingle wif.
but as i grew, i learn not to judge ppl nemore. org yg plg kite benci for no reasons will d ones yg akan tlg kita..

dunia nie sfera.

i dun hv to go sailing juz to prove dat~


;)

chill lah, shu. life must go on~