Demi Masa!

So, dats y dey invent camera! So dat u could remember! Hee.
November have been nothing but awesome! :) i did a lot of beneficial things, alhamdulilah, let's go through randomly, without any turutan abjad..

A) HEROES Conference , UIA
B) higland tower 2.0 poster making and protest
C) viva palestina malaysia volunteer at BSC Bangsar Shoping Centre  on tuesday this week!
D)  aquaria klcc outing with mak su and the kids n salamah and i ordered from shida foods to help her out with the sanding and all
E) kevin JOM Kurus prog n i bought his ebook! Alhamdulilah have shed 4kg so far. Not much, long way to go but i have a sense of change in me and i like that power, alhamdulilah..
F) palestin DEMO with 3 NGO , IKRAM, AL AQSA SYARIF and HALUAN :)  along with my bestfren ida hadi! :) meng cant come, she needs to prepare for upsr announcemnt :)
G) shopping with mak after so long!!! :)
H) help maya, reunion dgn Dr norhin, went to MMC
I) medical check up n sunathon in masjid besi!! 25112012  i was a bit dissapointed with the juniors!! Lambat dtg n kurang efficient :(
J) help drawing for mak su for her amali bahasa n cognitive for taska sijil exam :) cayo maksu!!!
K) settle my ETIQA insurance in jln maarof! God know how hard it is to sampai here.. Oh my! Alhamdulilah ETIQA sgt mantap layan customer, rs sgt smmoth n comfy,  alhmdulilh.  N the customer service exec siap tanya a lot bout palestin after tgk ashu punya mufler palestin!! :) n alhamdulilah i brought some pamphlet from VPM so she takes one n really appreciates it! :)
L) settle my DBKL compound sbb parking line kuning (i dunno how to masuk BSC so just park outside!) so i thot dbkl compound dlm rm50 je kot n tgk2 my offence is rm150 minimum charge! Oh my, terus tekan button C for rayuan... I will say something asal bukan rm150! Dats in my mind. But alhamdulilah, u knoe what, the kind sir sign my compound kertas n tules situ cancel.. Ok, you tak payah bayar apa2! Alhamdulilah. Allah hu akhbar, and yes dat is after sets of  questions and the most win question is 'mana dapat muffler palestin nie?' ;) allah hu akhbar! Tq sir, im sori i didnt ask for ur name but ur kindness is in my prayers! :) tq Allah! I hav experienced rezeki tanpa di sangka-sangka :) and indeed, i will remember dis! Tq Allah! N u knoe wut, actually dat Dbkl tuh, sgt dekat dgn uob tempat kerja mak nel n mmg sgt sebelah SOGO! :) hee. Tahu lots of tempat already! :) suka!!!!

Bebelness

Hey u, how's life? I heard ur lapse of time wif the research goin on.. Hope u'll able to catch up.. :) life so far for me have been Ok i guess, Alhamdulillah.. Things are falling into plans :) at least to me :) heard some problem regarding the left unands students and i dun really like how they react to mmc personally..  I understand dey r old and have wife but the way u said it is like u dun hav a great connection with Allah.. Yes, am damn judgemental but sori to say, this connection is not only on the prayer mat but also reflect in our words and conversation.. As if xde nilai bersyukur pun!! Hurm.. Its true dat desperate ppl are in fact desperate but u cn choose to be calm.. Our fate does not lies in our hand but is milik Allah! I hope dis ppl really learn sth!! Hurm.. Despite me being kesian to dem but stillll, live up to ur matureness lah.. Do sth, usaha..doa, tawakal.. And keep on bersanka baik dgn Allah.. A reminder for me too! Yes yes.. Hee. K, daa..

Compass redirecting #change

Dear blog, september was awesome! Alhamdulilah, i finish med school :)
Convo 10/10 and my bufday 16/10 ; did my first pedicure.. Terus nak jaga kaki bebaik.. Coz the before and after sgt lah pergh.. :)
We had our first studio picture together as family and the double joy sbb me and adek grad together.. Adek amek bpharm :) and already start working on my bufday!! :) *proud* me? Nak rilekx dulu and knowing me who cud finish matrix uia for 1 and a haf year instead of 2 years dat i dun regret taking.. I think as salwa  said to me on our long talk in her awesome house in percint 11! Cantek sgt! She said, in watever it is.. Perhaps its best not to fret and n jus follow the flow! :) and as i cn chose when to apply, i think 16 nov wud be a gud start.. A month after my bufday.. Hee. Start fresh! Nobody wants to work zombies like HO but its sth dat everyone go through i guess. This 2 years of wajibness.. Pengalaman. Bila MO nanti, lagi lah besar t/jawabb.. :) nak jawab depan Allah lagikkk:) #renung2kan selmt beramal :)

All the best sahabat2 yg berkhidmat utk ummah di pelosok negara!! My prayers are wif u!!

Nearly gold..

1. Another human. So stranger yet so close to heart. Have not seen eye to eye, hear ears to mouth but am really touch by azizulhasni awang. His life, his wife, family.. His support.. His effort. I am so out of words. Tq Allah for this roketman. My life change. I look foward to be a champion myself. If jijoe can do it, i can! :) best 6 in the world.. #olympiclondon.. P/s: chris hoy is 36!!! Take dat. Strong n healthy. Oh my. Gold summore. Sungguh, bismillah. Maha pemurah, maha penyayang...

Olympic roket life of mine...

July was a good month. Thiugh i would like to ganti with a more negative word but it does not help to make it more positive so just let's just be postive! (don't understand either, but u got wut i mean..)

So let's talk about today.. 4 august 2012.
Watched azizulhasni awang the pocketroketman saringan today. Am exhausted actually, back from midvalley doing groceries with crowded ppl, bla3 with una which was right after a program in seksyen 14 for yaUM! A bancian for the flat areas there, to knoe their income and what types of help we could offer.. It was quite sad actually. I wonder how life would be living in a congested place like dis. One of the house i banci, the 13 y.o boy with 5 siblings, plus parents.. :( i am so shock. Not that i have not heard of such things but hearing it live myself is a bit mind boming. The good part of this is I met syahidah, a very mature girl. I felt talking to a prime minister with her! :) very informative, critical thinking.. It have been long since i have a good talk and what a small world it is, she is a ex matrix uia pj and we are frm the same batch, she mention farah aqilah and farhana when i told her im frm tkc (y do pplmask what highschool we r? I dun.. Dunno y. Haha) and w/0 doubt i said they were my juniors. Omg... Then when few minutes, (yes, minute!!!!) baru lah, eh aah, nana.. But i still forgot who is farah aqilah when suddenly muka mao muncul and its already too late to tell her actually she's not my junior bcoz im too embarassed to admit. Haha.

Ok, my time is up. I need to wake up early tomorrow bcoz got date with prof at 9 am. Omg, apa pon xsiap lagi. My mental need to be as tough as pocketroket ok! Walaupun aku tak poket tapi tetap perlu roket!!!!!!!! Allah hu akhbar. I can, u can, we allllll can! InsyaAllah! ( ada gaya obams tak?) hehe.

tarikh yang crucial

Taken from Wednesday, July 6, 2011 my blog, dedicated to all batch 2007.. its an honour to be growing up with u guys... =)


titik


macam pelakon tak reti berlakon

macam tu lah yg aku rasa

medical student yg tak boleh blah

bakal tabib yg penakut

dan hari ini adalah salah satu dari hari-harinya

utk menggambarkan rasa kebodohan yang aku buat-buat telan mcm sedap

terdampar telantar

jauh makin jauh

mengharap yang bukan-bukan

melihat hina semua

walhal yg lebih hina ialah 4 jari yg menunding balik

aku serius mahukan pemberontakkan seperti YingLuck, Tehran dan Su Kyi



perang kali ini aku kalah kerna aku mengalah

aku biarkan impian aku berehat

biar dan biar dan biar

hingga terbiar

busuk dan bernanah

hati yang kacau bilau huru hara dan tak tenteram akibat tak bersemadi dgn fitrah

apa lagi yang kau mahukan dari dunia

banyaknya mahu dan kurangnya memberi



ku tabik pada manusia2 yg lupa pada erti penat

pada manusia biasa yg tak menjadikan obstacle kehidupan sebgai nokhtah pada usaha kental seorang hamba yang wajar sewajarnya work damn hard kerna hasilnya adalah hak Allah

buat apa bimbang?berusahalah, segigihnya.

sudah lama kau tidur lena mcm mati

hingga hidup pun tak sedar, bernafas mcm terpaksa

apa lagi yg tak kena ....

apa lagi yg nk ditunggu?

masa hibernasi sepatutnya sudah tamat long long time ago



titik.
 

the day after adik was born...

i appreciated today..
i remember my past..
i get frustated with now..
n get understood with an unexpected question..

be very close with the sun.. as if i am able to hold it in my hands..
Alhamdulillah.
tq Allah..
for today..
even tomorrow may bring another challenge..

i remember how it feels like going through a hurdle.
i wasn't the best of doing it.
but i was sumhow the one need to do it anyway..
deal with it.. finish it up!
face it..... sth dat u need to go through....

of course u'll be scared... afraid of wut would might happen.. or will happen..

through my life, i was not the best.. dream of being the best..
but i was not.. though in some situation, i was lucky that the environment lead me to appear superior
but 'the best' of that era stays in that era..
and in most of 2nd decade i'm going thru...im purely average.

im not gonna fail.
not gonna waste my time.
not gonna cry.
im gonna fight!
coz im a fighter and Allah makes us as a fighter prior to development of XY, XX
Allah makes us a fighter where in every human, there is nafs... and its our iman n will that will help save us in the battle..

o Allah, 2 weeks more..
help all of us pass the finishing line together..

ameen ya rab bal ala min...

seribu kali

dear, I'm not sure if u could understand dis, but i dun mind if u wanna scold me hard and then hug me and say, u knoe it's not my fault. that i shud have tried harder, that i shud chose other things and not this. U know that it's hard for me too. Just those words, i guess. I just need to cry. to let it out. Selfish is it? I hope not. It's not my intention to make everyone sad. I have a dream, to make a better hospital environment. We don't need more hospitals. We need more people who can tolerate hospital workloads. I really want the hospital to be staff friendly. to be patient friendly. to be islamic. as islam is the way of life. but i know. words are always easier said than done. i can tell u a lot of stuffs and facts and stories but the truth is, there is so little of contribution and action that i am taking part in. i really felt ashame of myself. i felt that wif u scolding me, will ease up my pain and guilt but yes, again the one that i hurt most would be my creator. o Allah, i have fail u greatly. is der a way back home? im home. but i dun feel like home. am trapped wif my weakness and selfishness. o Allah, save me, save the ones that loves me, and the ones that i love. save me from all the things that i think i cud not do. last 2 days, a murabbi said this to us....

Dan sesiapa yang bertaqwa kepada Allah (dengan mengerjakan suruhanNya dan meninggalkanlaranganNya),nescaya akan dijadikan baginya jalan keluar (dari segala perkara yang menyusahkannya).Serta memberinya rezeki dari jalan yang tidak terlintas hatinya. Dan (ingatlah), sesiapa berserah diri bulat-bulat kepada Allah, maka Allah cukupkan baginya (untuk menolong danmenyelamatkannya). Sesungguhnya Allah tetap melakukan segala perkara yang dikehendakiNya. Allah telahpun menentukan kadar dan masa bagi berlakunya tiap-tiap sesuatu.(Ayat 2 & 3 Surah At-Talaq @ ayat seribu dinar.

tak sangka ayat ini begitu menyentuh hati. and i cried without noticing. Allah.. thank you.. it's ifiniti value for me, not only seribu dinar :)

i luv u, Allah.. i do.

p/s: plis Allah, grants the F5 tkc students, be interested towards our coming.. let this pertemuan be a blessed event. ameen. and the rest, terpulang pada kau, ya Allah. segalanya milik kau..

desir angin seperti memujuk

Awan putih bergerak memberi harapan

Hujan turun lagi seolah-olah seperti rindu dgn aku yang dulu

Langit putih diconteng burung-burung terbang

Pokok tumbuh tak pernah putus asa walau terik garang

Terus tumbuh

Mereka lebih mulia drp aku

Yg takut

Takut dgn bayang, takut dgn petir yg dibaling,

Entah dari mana aku belajar

Utk takut dgn takdir Tuhan

Ya Allah, aku mahu kembali

Aku mahu terbang

Aku mahu semua yg aku mahu

puteh

had a dream of sumone whom i did not know who..
he was wearing dis jubah, white in color, wif a kopiah. a nice smile.

none other than anyone dat i knew.

O Allah, if its gonna be like dat.. than waiting is worthwhile... i guess. perhaps. InsyaAllah...

sem sep!

1. video claim drp maya

2. ilmu hx

3. video PE

4. ix interpretation

5. mx mx mx

6. abolish penangguhan

7. stop tambah perencah

8. Plis plis. 4 bulan jer lagi!

azure means blue sky

whats my mind like?
headwire.
loud.
unresponsive.
aggresive.
complicated.

sometimes i just wanna show ppl, how bad they are by being dem.
but it turns out that the one dat feels bad, is not dem. but double me.

i had the same dream twice.
gotta do sth about it.
its about me missing my flight.
last night got another dream of vietnam war.

my life is kinda shaky right now.
wish i would be right of the whys....

i hate it when i miss sumone who dosent even have an inkling magnitude of importance of me in deir life. dis is a horrible feeling.

pelan

academic

sem 10:

1. organize based on colour ;blue, pink, orange, yellow :)



2. revise surgery
   

non sem 10 :

1. read all books yg termampu... :)
   
   

non-academic

family:selasa wif m su, bw nek jln, visit pk lng, lawat ajue, visit pak long? lawat atok busu? , dating dgn sally, amad? mokhtar? mak intn;ajib,ashid, lawat mak am;belikan ikan haruan, lepak rumah Dr M

frens: rabu dgn laila izyn , meng khamis? , isnin depan lawat mak qishy?, lepak dgn HO ktn yuen, mama:) , lepak dgn ija plus mak,

weight hurmmmm bye.

voucher buku lagi seratus~ rabu kl central MPH bookstore! after dgn izyan..

masak blaja dgn mak er er :D , salin resipi drp nenek

BM isi form plus istikharah

travel , esok jumpe chip2 iA, PD nxt week or sepang gold coast jah~

kursus haji?

sental bilik

kemas bilik underground ukays

Settle usrah video dgn yr 4 :)

kuat harimau

this song by kelly clarkson explains it all. i am going to be stronger with or without u..


You know the bed feels warmer,
Sleeping here alone,
You know I dream in color,
And do the things I want.


You think you got the best of me
Think you had the last laugh

Bet you think that everything good is gone.


Think you left me broken down
Think that i'd come running back
Baby you don't know me, cause you're dead wrong.


What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
stand a little taller
Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone.


What doesn't kill you makes a fighter
Footsteps even lighter
Doesn't mean I'm over cause you're gone.


What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, stronger
Just me, Myself and I
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger

Stand a little taller
Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone.


You heard that I was starting over with someone new,

They told you I was moving on over you,
You didn't think that I'd come back ,i'd come back swinging
You try to break me but you see


What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
stand a little taller
doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone.


What doesn't kill you makes a fighter
Footsteps even lighter
doesn't mean I'm over cause your gone.


what doesn't kill you makes you stronger, stronger

Just me, myself and I
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger

Stand a little taller Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone


Thanks to you I got a new thing started
Thanks to you I'm not the broken hearted
Thanks to you I'm finally thinking 'bout me


You know in the end the day I left was just my beginning..... in the end...

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
Stand a little taller
Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone


What doesn't kill you makes a fighter
Footsteps even lighter
doesn't mean I'm over cause you gone.

What doesnt kill you makes you stronger, stronger
Just me, Myself and I
What doesnt kill you makes you stronger
Stand a little taller
Dosnt mean I'm lonely when Im alone.


Copied from MetroLyrics.com

profesional

pro exm 2 nie post day 1 mcm rilek jerh. bahaya btol..

teringt "amd"

istigfar jap.

jauh lagi perjalanan..

ingt nk susun folder dlm laptop nie cantik2..biar semangat skit msk sem1o..

iA seblom 10, semua lulus pro2. ameen.

teringat tazkirah bg kat hangmidah..

kalo kita takut sgt fail pro2, cuba compare kalo kita mati harini.. kita fail depan Allah.. takut tak?
tak?
tak terfikir pun kan...

so, xpayah takut sgt pro 2 kalo dgn Allah pon xtakut...

dgn kata lain, be prepared je lah. pertolongan Allah itu dekat. kita ada Allah, iA e/thng possible. tiada yg mudah melainkan Allah mudahkan :)

berjuang mode activated!!!

gogogo

dear shash, be strong lah. sikit je headache tuh. stress kot, tapi blank gle stress. heh.
byk lagi tak revise. yg xbrapa sentuh is surgery, ong, ortho.. pon xtau apa yg bc IM, PAEDS, and the rest mcm ape jerh.
ok, dh start takut.

bye..

:)

matters

U pernah bc letters to sam?

Hurm. Ada apa lah dgn buku nie.
X wait nk beli and bc after pro 2! The most important xm dis starting year! :)
IA buat yg terbaik! Ironi sgt skrng tgh taip blog! Haha.
But x help it.
It's 1 jan 2012 alrite.rugi lah x conteng cni. Hee.

Bila selak balik 2011.. Hurm.
Mmg sgt pelbagai.
2010 was hard for me. Adaptation was a big issue.
When it comes to 2011, I m more brave.
I knoe wut I want n I learnt to let go.. And accept takdir Allah dgn lebih redha..
It was hard at first but as time goes by, I knoe I'm alright.
I have air to breath. Sunlight to feel.
Rain to play. Birdschirping to hear :)

Dis 2012 is expected phase. I anticipate it wud be super tense as 6 jan ada pro 2 and 12 june ada pro 3.
After dat pg haji. IA. Sihatkanlah semua org yg nak sgt pg nie, ya Allah! Ameen.
Maybe after exm jom pg roadtrip? Hsemate, tkc mate, usrahmate,
Hoho! Can't wait! :)

After haji then kerja lah. Bak kata una, kita cuti 6 bulan lah kak? Hurm. Ya lah. Begitu lah..

Ameen! :)

Love life? Mimpinya after pg haji nak kahwin.
Tapi tak nak pk lagi.
Not now lah. Later! :) doakan plis dpt suami kuat iman, pandai masak, pandai pujuk, x berkira, bukan anak mak sgt n semua lah yg elok2 :D plg penting, tidak merokok!

Sekian.
Bye.
Buku dah miscall..
;D