pikir r nie!

fine. fine. fine.

i am so not gonna think of you baney leman pezen bagus. cold nk mampos.
and YOU, genius of d very gud cheer leader-why do i need u at d first place-gosh-

thank you. and yes i mean it. thank YOU!

p/s: ESOK PAGI BUTE PERLU KE KG BANGKUNG UTK KAJI SELDIDK TAHAP KESIHATAN KG ITU.. OH NOOO (suara parvin..) hahaha.

what d

now, im feeling like.......................

fuuuh. can i not feel anything rite now? can i not judge u. can i juz be whatever.. and still, im waiting for a day when i cn juz accept u for who u are and i, for who i am..

owh well, things dun hv to be great. things dun hv to be cool.
owh pliz, thngs dun hv to be perfect!

-the end-

i know...

selfishly, i wanna u to hear and understand at the same time..

but then,
so what; if u dun understnd...
at least u tell...
and by telling, dat means, ur listening..

and listening to me is like.. BO ringg..

hee~

thank you! (:

as-salam-mualaikum.....

assalamualaikum makcik, sy shahirah dari Cyberjy Uni College of Medical Sciences, nak buat survey lah tahap kesihatan penduduk kawasan taman nie.. (padahal pre-test jerh), boleh benarkan sy tanya makcik beberapa soalan..(ada 148 soalan kot. haha)

----makcik ada menonton rancangan televisyen drama mcm cerekarama, etc?
makcik selalu tgk AXN, CSI, discovery channel... (muka separa terkejut, impress..) owh..bagusnya makcik.. aah, makcik minat tgk.. -------



assalammualaikum......
waalaikumsalam..

makcik, kami dr pejabat kesihatan, nak buat pemeriksaan pembiakan aedes di kawasan belakang dan hadapan rumah makcik.. mohon kerjasamalah..

p/s: nyamuk aedes hanya membiak dgn air bersih jerh.. yg tenang dan tak mengalir..

roller coster mood

haih.
melayan lagu2 pahana the wrestler di dlm kete hitam (sori, mmg tak reti nama kereta, hatta kereta2 kat umah aku je r yg aku hafaz dan kereta yg selain dr umah aku, harap maaf. ) nway, dlm kete itam tuh lah time2 aku malas gle nak bawak kete pg RC or kampung2, esp kampung bangkong jgn harap aku nk bawak kete g situh jauh nk mampos or watever, mendengar kan lagu2 mp3 (nie lagik satu, ape nama teknologi nie, i dun gv a damn.. mp3 agaknyer..) list of songs yg membuai2 perasaan. serius. kalo satu hari dgr lagu cinta2 nie bleh mereng aku. feel love instantly siot. kalo ade org yg nk dicurahkan xpe gak.. nieh, xde. buat penat happy hormones jer kuar. (apekah nama hormon itu? prof hamdan, sori.. wee) nway, hari nie melawat toilet kat tempat2 kampung org asli. even aku penah tgk toilet nieh kat kampung aku dulu.. tapik kali nie baru paham asal lah toilet nieh kat luar and pelik and asal dibentuk mcm tuh, ade ruang lat bumbung nie mcm bg org mengendap jer. rupe2 nye untuk ventilation purpose. hehe. and 1st impression aku pasal org2 BAKAS (bekalan air dan kebersihan alam sekeliling) nieh mcm agak hina r gak, 'org2 toilet'.. tapi at d moment org BAKAS tuh bg intro, hit tros otak aku.. ape pentingnya toilet? erkkkk. sgt penting, ok.. kalo xde toilet yg best mcm umah aku, umah ko, umah kita, pergh, tak idup aku wey. kalo balik kg tuh, bukannye taknak balik tau, mesti r rindu nenek atok sumeh tapik toilet......... crius. itu adelah melting point aku utk tidak balik sekerap yg sepatutnya.. ergh. kalo aku kecik2 dulu mcm agak x kesah kot sbb ade org cebokkan, ade org tlg pulun flushkan.. haha. pape r kan, kalo aku still kecik lagik pon xdpt r buat ape org besar buat. haih. kesimpulannyer, perlu utk tidak under estimate org, ok.. sila bersangka baik dgn semua org. even kawan2 punye tendency utk menginvinsible kan ko pon.. xpe. jadik invinsible cool per. (do i sound like yorke, now?) heh. daaa~ (banyaknya keje nk buat... report lah, proposal lah, haih!)

dunia...

Lirik Putihnya Lukisan - Meet Uncle Hussain

Oh duniapenuh dengan derita
ada suka
ada juga dukanya
yang di sana sedang menakluk dunia
yang di sini ditimpa malapetaka

Oh dunia harinioh sedihnya
oh tanah dijajah lagioh kejamnya

*Jika ku seorang pelukis
akan ku warnai duniadengan warna putih
agar tiada gelap lukisannya ow oh oh dan oh
Oh manusiatak ku mengerti sifatnyaada mulia ada juga kejinya
yang si tua berbalahkan kuasa
yang simuda mengacukan senjata

Oh maruah dijual beli
oh murah nya
oh bumi terbelah lagi
oh bencana


and i change my mind.. public health posting is indeed great. im able to realize that there r things dat r not undr ur control.. and der r thngs dat u cn change.. like me finally able to arranging stuffs even initially according to kude's fussiness.. and the long roads to nilai from ampang or putra makes me able to finally cross the road at more than 120km/hr.. not bad for a chicken cum driver name shahirah shuaib.. not bad at all! (:

mun is getting married this 6th or 7th.. (mind me, nikah 6 kots..) nway, im feel so growing up when i heard that my dearest last aunty who is 5 years older than i am is getting married to the luv of her lifetime, cik azam/khalid coz he looks like khalid jamlus. haha. nway, sbb kitaorng beza 5 tahun jerh, so i am so d very close to her.. esp zaman2 sebelum dia sgt sebok berkerjaya di UOB bank.. mun / mak nel/ or appropriately mak su, but her sister who is also my aunt name is suhaila and atok is like 'this is mak su' and so, mak nel cannot be calling mak su even its also ok to call mak su as mak su and mak nel as mak su as well.. owh my, nway.. it dosent matter, wut does matter is dat shashu doa moge mak nel saye majlis nikah/sanding berjalan lancar.. ameen. woot, mun, cepat r mengandung babe, gua nak ukur perut lu! weeee. ;)

meng-meng akan naik umurnya kepada 22 pada baki 5 hari lagi. gosh, cant wait nak beli topup 30 hinggit and bercakap dgn meng2, wishing2 happy birthday. meng adelah kawan baik sy yg palinggggggggg sweet sekalik.. sy syg meng2 sbb meng2 punye telinge dan dimensi mata yg berbeza.. walaupun acap kali nampak down tapi sebenarnye meng sgt forward looking orangnye, despite all s*** yg dia gone thru tapi meng tetap maintain meng.. hee. syg kamu old pal. age is juz a matter or numbers. kan, kan..

akhir-akhir nie abah mcm stress jer. semua bende nk marah2. if scene itu tadik semalam berlaku 5 tahun yg dulu, sure aku down dgn abah or even get even dgn dia or rather culture shock but being me today, aku telan jer pe dia hambur.. and trying my best to distract him frm bebeling.. 'bah, iklan kat billboard nie org tuh kna byr mahal kan kan..' 'bah, yg org tesco tadik tuh mmg lembap hell kan abah kan..' 'abah dah buang air brape kali minum air herbs nie..' wee. tak pasal2 but peace, aku life saver mak ok dr kna bebel. haha.

adam. bukan cite nur kasih lah. seorang adam, di mn aku hawa nye.
rindukan adam yg entah bila akan muncul dgn izinNya.
atau dia sudah muncul dan aku masih lagi terhijab dgn hikmahNya?

ah..

pedulik hape.

aku xnak dgr lagi ko merepeks!!!!!

owh, dats d other me, talking to the other me, trying to reach the so called me
to get at least some sense in at least logic basic thinking stuffs whch sumhow n sumday will be a lot easier.. mayb, juz mayb~

wee. selamat malam seluruh hamba..

enam belas sepuluh

ada masanya kita merasa senang dan ada masanya kita rasa payah.
susah-susah-susah
itu jer yang bermain di fikiran aku sekarang.
and indeed public health is one pain for me and perhaps for all of us.
especially when ur not good in driving like me, lembap menghafal map macam aku,
toilet tak best, air kecik, byk kna travel, bla3..

so, is der all wrong and dark here in sepang?

perhaps i need more preparation.
i need not be afraid of who i am
but the truth is , there r so much thngs dat
my mum or dad or adik can cover me up back then
but now its been like campak to a whole new world
not that i cant stand on my own

but my head cant help saying that this is the crack ship
but then, bersangka baik aje lah.

esok masih ada. masih...

p/s: birthday saye jgn lupe ya.. :)

puzzle of life

reading letterman's scandal makes me come across 2 points.. manusia mmg x pnh cukup dgn apa yg dia ada, n if im in his shoes, will I b a lot worst than hm.. come to think of it, manusia takkan pnh lepas dr buaat silap But kita juge yg decide.. u decide ur life n ur decision 2dy will definitely effect ur future.. yosh! exm kol3. woot!!

moga Allah beri lagi.. tq Allah

aku takut benar Dia tak dgr.
sbb lambat sgt aku mintak.
hari jumaat baru terhegeh2 nak menadah.
ya allah, permudahkanlah exam aku especially dgn patient.
aku xnak sgt dgn jerung. (alhamdulilah, dpt dr haizal..)
and smoge apa yg aku bace, keluar xm..(patient PPROM bace mlm tadik smpi ke pagi..tq lah imran, slide ko sgt membantus)

aku balik, aku sujud syukur.segera. alhamdulilah, allah beri.
kemudian tak semena-mena aku sebak.. ya allah, aku yg hina nie pun, dgn penuh sifat pemurah kau beri, utk satu exam yg semata2 result dunia nie, kau beri, itu pun aku minta lambat..
mungkin, kalau aku minta, dia... dia yg sinarannya mendamaikan, mungkinkah kau beri, ya allah? mungkinkah seorang ali diberi kepd seorg yg selain fatimah??

ya allah.. moga kau beri lagi rasa bahagia mendpt pertolongan dariMu. ameen.

p/s: pose enam masih berbaki 2 hari.. woot!

berhabuk

and maybe i might be me again. a better me. amin.

monday, 5th Oct, 8.30 til 9. 15.. exam kat ward 2A! gudluck shahirah. u cn do it!