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its funny how ppl look forward to see sumone else.. well, its not dat funny nway, but i'll still feels dat way. when ur heart juz can't focus and all u see is juz wat u wanna see.. sumtimes its so easy to look down on others. and as well as let ppl down.. i wont let u down sounds i'll let u down nowdays.. frm paklah to our besties.. and no, im not complaining prof.. im reflecting! =) and i juz purposely put it in a form of words yg menunjukkan yg saye ini xde lah mcm seakan2 terlibat same dgn adegan2 drama swasta yg menarek hati. heh~ but then, yeah, i think, iv been making ppl dissapointed..alwez~ iv look down on ppl as well.. and as much as its no gud, its gud in a way dat, when i realized dat its no gud, i turn to ALLAH and says, god, pliz dun let me be like dis.. sume org tak perfect.. y shud i expect they r when im myself not? im having ids trouble nowdays, d feeling of not moving on.. like my feets are glued on the ground and im heavily emotional inside dat i cn explode anytime i want. but then i quit being the negative me. y shud i b negative when there is still hope? when ders sumone dat can light the smile in ur heart? (provokasi gitu..haha.) tapi betol lah kan.. and allah is always der to let u see that this life has a power. and that power dosent necessary means MIGHTY. u cn be TINY and hv a lot of power.. like ur pituitary gland.. ow yeah its tiny, but amanah ALLAH bg kat dia, masyaallah, saya tak mampu nak ucap terima kasih yg mcm mana lagi pada si kecil berkuasa besar ini.. and all of a sudden, u find happiness in the small2 things in life. yg tak perlukan duit sgt pon.. like a smile, a laughter, a walk(to remember), free gifts, kad raye, a heart to heart conversation, a satisfaction of knowing ur doing the right thing.. anything~ as long as u open ur heart as wide as u cud.. mcm jendela. cahaya takkan masuk ke dalam jendela yg tak terbuka.. i believe in dat.. u cant reach to sumone else if u shut urself. as if its so hard to let ppl in and knoe the real u.. wuts to b afraid of? well, the truth is, everyone is afraid.. but if u keep holding on to the fear, when will happiness be knocking on ur door?



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