tarikh yang crucial

Taken from Wednesday, July 6, 2011 my blog, dedicated to all batch 2007.. its an honour to be growing up with u guys... =)


titik


macam pelakon tak reti berlakon

macam tu lah yg aku rasa

medical student yg tak boleh blah

bakal tabib yg penakut

dan hari ini adalah salah satu dari hari-harinya

utk menggambarkan rasa kebodohan yang aku buat-buat telan mcm sedap

terdampar telantar

jauh makin jauh

mengharap yang bukan-bukan

melihat hina semua

walhal yg lebih hina ialah 4 jari yg menunding balik

aku serius mahukan pemberontakkan seperti YingLuck, Tehran dan Su Kyi



perang kali ini aku kalah kerna aku mengalah

aku biarkan impian aku berehat

biar dan biar dan biar

hingga terbiar

busuk dan bernanah

hati yang kacau bilau huru hara dan tak tenteram akibat tak bersemadi dgn fitrah

apa lagi yang kau mahukan dari dunia

banyaknya mahu dan kurangnya memberi



ku tabik pada manusia2 yg lupa pada erti penat

pada manusia biasa yg tak menjadikan obstacle kehidupan sebgai nokhtah pada usaha kental seorang hamba yang wajar sewajarnya work damn hard kerna hasilnya adalah hak Allah

buat apa bimbang?berusahalah, segigihnya.

sudah lama kau tidur lena mcm mati

hingga hidup pun tak sedar, bernafas mcm terpaksa

apa lagi yg tak kena ....

apa lagi yg nk ditunggu?

masa hibernasi sepatutnya sudah tamat long long time ago



titik.
 

the day after adik was born...

i appreciated today..
i remember my past..
i get frustated with now..
n get understood with an unexpected question..

be very close with the sun.. as if i am able to hold it in my hands..
Alhamdulillah.
tq Allah..
for today..
even tomorrow may bring another challenge..

i remember how it feels like going through a hurdle.
i wasn't the best of doing it.
but i was sumhow the one need to do it anyway..
deal with it.. finish it up!
face it..... sth dat u need to go through....

of course u'll be scared... afraid of wut would might happen.. or will happen..

through my life, i was not the best.. dream of being the best..
but i was not.. though in some situation, i was lucky that the environment lead me to appear superior
but 'the best' of that era stays in that era..
and in most of 2nd decade i'm going thru...im purely average.

im not gonna fail.
not gonna waste my time.
not gonna cry.
im gonna fight!
coz im a fighter and Allah makes us as a fighter prior to development of XY, XX
Allah makes us a fighter where in every human, there is nafs... and its our iman n will that will help save us in the battle..

o Allah, 2 weeks more..
help all of us pass the finishing line together..

ameen ya rab bal ala min...